violet velvet

unknown, fleurira

As much as I love the hot weather, I cannot wait for fall/winter because I can pull out my Doc Martens again and also wear long pants and sweaters and big thick knit scarves and snuggle up in my blanket. Haha. And speaking of winter, I really want a camel coat (I know that is so last year BUT I STILL WANT ONE GRR).

so many shades of pale

la belle personne, swinmminginmilk

Sore. I'm sore all over. My arms, legs, shoulders, fingers hurt. Everything feels bruised. I guess this is what I get for being so unfit during the summer, and then suddenly experiencing intense and vigorous exercise during the volleyball tryout yesterday. Sigh.

Today we had an assembly at school which focused on our graduation transition to prepare ourselves for post-secondary and etc etc. It kind of reminded me of how less time their is left in high school, and how much closer graduation is. I don't want to graduate. Well, I do. But I don't want to leave high school. This is a reminder of the fact that I'm growing up - that I'm becoming an adult. Ugh. I want to stay young forever, as stupid as that sounds. I want to stay a kid forever.

Now I leave you with a totally irrelevant quote from the La Belle Personne: "You never really know people, even those you love."

i don't feel like a person

the virgin suicides, enflurane

Today was the second day of classes. Great. Here's how they went (what a joy):

Block E- English

So I found out I was in a blended learning english class, which is new to my school. We didn't sign up for this. Apparently it was just randomly assigned. A blended learning class basically combines face-to-face learning time with teachers (it's still a full class) as well as independent online learning where you don't need to attend class. It seems okay I guess. I mean, I don't need to attend class on certain dates. That gives me an excuse to skip except I get to skip with a valid reason heheheh (just kidding, I'm not that kind of student! I never skip okay).

Block F- Leadership

My class is seems to have more guys than girls. It's the guys who are athletic and act like they're really cool kind of guys. Um. Yeah. But for leadership, we basically do fundraisers and help out with events and etc etc. For instance, there are two annual P.E. runs (I'm not sure how long it is but people say it is about 7 laps on a 400m track), and leadership students get to host it and stand outside and time runners or stand at the checkpoints that are at certain corners of the streets (a.k.a. missing class time aw yeah).

Block G- Pre-Calculus

Math wasn't too bad. In fact, I must admit, I don't find math all too bad. I actually love it when it makes sense. You know that feeling you get when you understand something in math? Yeah. That feeling is fucking great. But when I don't get something in math, I literally want to burn my textbook. The thing that sucks is that we get new textbooks because of a new curriculum that started at my grade in grade 8. So basically since grade 8 we have been getting new textbooks and learning a different/new curriculum that the grade above us. Interesting.

Block H- French

My teacher is a fellow with crossed eyes. It is intriguing, but also scary. I mean, you can't tell whether or not he's looking at you or not! Today, while he was talking in front of the class, it felt like he kept looking at me because his eyes looked like they were looking at me. But I think he was looking at someone else because at one point while he was standing in front of the class, he was talking to one kid but he kind of looked like he was looking at someone else so I was trying to figure out how his eyes worked, like if he appears to be looking one way, where he's actually looking. One day I will master this.

So that was my day. Not too interesting. But afterschool I had volleyball tryouts. I'm not going to lie, that was the worst I've ever done in a tryout. I've been on the volleyball team my entire highschool life (in grades 8, 9, and 10) but now this year in grade 11, I don't think I'm going to make it onto the team. This year, it's the senior team, because grade 11 and 12s both are in the senior team. This made me so nervous because the older grade kind of intimidates me and I played so badly and I sucked so much I feel so humiliated now. The coach didn't make any cuts yet (though I think I would be cut) and there is another tryout on Tuesday. I'm debating whether or not I should go or not and furthur embarrass myself. I'm sad.

(UPDATE: I made it on the senior volleyball team and I cannot believe it. Oh my god.)

nothing can save us

unknown, thedarkvictory

I really want that t-shirt. Hmm.

Anyway, today was my first day of classes! My schedule looks like this:

Day 1

Block A- Biology 12

Block B- Foods & Nutrition 11

Block C- Physical Education

Block D- Physics 11

Day 2

Block E- English 11

Block F- Leadership 11

Block G- Pre-Calculus 11

Block H- French 11

To be honest, I don't find my schedule too bad. I mean on my day 1 I have biology and physics (ugh) but it's balanced out with P.E. and foods. Not bad I guess.

Well today was a day 1. It's not like you care, but here's how my classes went.

Block A- Biology

At first I thought I was going to be the only grade 11 student in the class, seeing as this is a grade 12 course. But luckily, there were like seven grade 11 kids I knew! At least I didn't have to sit by myself in the corner with no friends being all quiet and doing work the entire class like I intended to. My teacher is a nice woman. She's the type of teacher who's really chill and lets us listen to music in class. I had her last year for Biology 11. This year she looked very different though. Last year her hair would be cut short with layers with blond highlights in it, but this year, half her head looked shaved-ish and her side swept bangs were dyed purple! It's not everyday you see a teacher like that. She also dresses in this kind of rocker look but at the same time wears those boho style skirts. We started doing work on the first class though. And turns out the first quiz is next tuesday on September 13 - on my birthday. Great.

Block B- Foods

This class was boring. My teacher reminds me of a horse too. Not to be mean. But she does. Okay. Basically she talked about safety and the course outline and all this boring stuff I didn't bother to listen to.

Block C- P.E.

I have the same teacher as last year again. I kind of don't like her. But I guess she's okay. She's a large woman, I must say. This leaves many to think to themselves, why is such a large woman teaching P.E.? But I heard she is actually pretty athletic and can run many laps (I think 8 or 10) nonstop around our 400m track. There are so many people in my class. Or it seems like it. It's just that there are so many girls from so many different "social groups" and I don't know, it's just weird.

Block D- Physics

I hate physics. Officially. I thought it was bad enough during the physics unit in science 10. Well now, instead of one unit, I get to focus on physics for the ENTIRE YEAR! This is just great! Not. The first class we're already learning stuff. We learned about sig figs today which I kind of get but at the same time kind of not. Well, it's kind of like I think I get it but I'm not sure if I actually do. If that makes sense. But my teacher is a pretty funny guy. At least that will make class a little more bearable.

Well. I wonder how tomorrow's day 2 will go. I hope it doesn't suck (but it probably will).

roses are not red

unknown, nequest, unknown

I've always wondered how it'd be like to have hair dyed in some sort of colour like purple or pink or torquoise or even pastel shades. Of course, I don't want to be looked upon by adults (especially) as being some sort of immature rebellious teen out to get drunk and do stupid shit and make my parents cry but at the same time that is the look I would be trying to achieve. As imaginative as I am, I can't even imagine myself with coloured hair (seeing as how undaring I am, sigh), but I can imagine the look on my mother's face. No she is not happy.

first day of school ugh

dion gillard , unknown, unknown, me

Today was the first day of school. It was okay. Kind of boring, to be honest. I received compliments on my hair (over the summer, I got it cut bluntly and shorter, and dyed it brown), and my eye makeup (I had cat eye winged eyeliner) which I thought was lovely seeing as how I am always so self-conscious and ugh. But other than that, the day was blatantly boring. I guess it was somewhat nice to see classmates again after two months of summer break but to be honest I don't really care to see classmates again because I'm not very fond of most people.

I wore a navy shirt with little white polka dots from J.Crew, vintage Levi shorts, a brown H&M cardigan, brown American Eagle sandals (sandals, boxers, and undergarments are the only things I will ever buy from American Eagle actually), and a black thrifted satchel. I would have taken pictures of my outfit but a) I was too lazy and b) I felt too hot and sweaty.

I'm disappointed that our lockers are in the same place as last year's again. Our lockers used to be where our first block classroom was (which obviously changes yearly). But this year, they are the same ones by our homerooms and unfortunately I do not like my locker location. It's at the end of a hallway in a wing where I have no classes. Great.

I was planning to go back to school with the yin yang design I did a couple weeks back, but unfortunately something tragic happened. I painted my nails in that design yesterday, and on the same day my mom made me clothe my Barbie and Bratz dolls from many years ago so that she can give them to her friend's daughter to play with. I was too busy having so much fun dressing them like sluts that my nail polish got all messed up. Sigh. There's also a box of Bratz and Barbie accessories we're giving to my mom's friend's daughter and I left a decapitated Barbie head in there. I know. I'm evil.

something (it's nothing)

unknown, unknown

Her rosy complexion. Her delicate lips. Her eyes were closed. Her sandy blond hair sat comfortably flowing down her spiny back as a small breeze swept strands onto her shoulders.

"I'm sorry" she whispered.


Um I'm just writing random shit and whatever that doesn't even make sense. Okay.

i lost myself

unknown

School is starting in two days and I'm looking forward to it but at the same time I'm not. I'm not happy that my summer break is ending. But the only thing I like about school is that I can dress up and wear the pretty clothes that I bought in the summer.

I want to write something like a novel or at least a passage but I've been feeling so uninspired lately.

These days I don't even know who I am. I feel like some lost soul or whatever. I don't know how I should dress, how I should look, how I should act. I've been trying so hard to be somebody I'm not that I feel like I've lost myself. I don't know who the fuck I am anymore.

helloo

I'm Jasmine and well this is my blog where I will post thoughts and pretty pictures and clothes and outfits and other things. I'm one of those people who tend to give up on blogs like this but I hope I will be able to keep this one from dying like the others. I also have a tumblr which is full of pictures I find lovely or interesting and what not. Um there isn't much else I have to say here so I guess I'll leave it at this.