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talula shirt, wilfred cardigan, american apparel shorts, american eagle sandals

This is an outfit from weeks ago that I wore to a family BBQ. I just thought I'd post it because, well, I wanted to post this outfit. And that's about it I suppose.

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Here are a bunch of pictures that would easily fall under gpoy for me with some quotes that are also relevant to me and my life in between. Enjoy.

"i cant even play hard to get im already hard to want"

"when attractive people compliment me on things i get suspicious because remember when regina george complimented that one girl on her skirt"

"Saying someone can't be sad because someone else may have it worse is just like saying someone can't be happy because someone else might have it better."

"fine whatever i will just date myself"

"i hate when people pour my cereal

they don’t know the amount of milk i like

they don’t know how much cereal i want

they don’t know me

they don’t know my life

they don’t know what i been through"

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(quote credit linked on opening quotation mark)

summertime sadness

american apparel t-shirt, h&m parka, garage leggings, vintage necklace, thrifted bag, nine west boots

I went shopping yesterday and here was my outfit. I bought 2 tank tops and a sweater from H&M which I will probably post about later because I'm too lazy to take pictures of them right now. I was planning to go buy a birthday present for my friend, too, but I couldn't really find anything. Maybe I'll find something during the weekend, since I still have like a week and a half before her party.

I went to Zara and I tried on this jacket and I think I fell in love:

It's so pretty gdfklgjdlgd but I don't know what I'd wear it to but I really like it. But it was like $100 and I'm poor and also I don't know when I'd ever really wear it so yeah. But it was so soft too. I also tried on this jacket at Zara:

I believe it was like $82 and it was so cute. The jacket is basically like leather and the sleeves are kind of like army jacket/parka-ish. I don't know how to describe it haha but it was in this section with a lot of military-style clothing and I really wanted to buy like everything but as I said before I am poor and also jobless. I really should get a job but I am just too lazy, but I've never worked before so I guess I should start, well, soon, considering I'm turning 17 soon!

Anyway, I've been listening to 'Summertime Sadness' but the Reich & Bleich remix a lot lately and I really like the sound.

style inspiration: soyymilk

So I recently came across a tumblr blog called soyymilk and wow I am in love with her style. Here are some pictures tagged as herself. (credit: all photos from soyymilk).

She's only 15 which makes me so envious because when I was 15 my style wasn't as nice as this haha. But wow I am actually really in love with her style and everything! I normally don't do this style inspiration posts but I just had to. That is all.

a blessed unrest that keeps us marching

Yesterday I was bored. I took dumb pictures of myself and I thought I'd post them here for me to look and shake my head in embarrassment at in the future.

teen idle

Came back from a family BBQ and I'm tired. I'll probably do like outfit posts and shit like that tomorrow but hi. I've been listening to 'Teen Idle' by Marina and the Diamonds a lot lately.


Like, I feel like this is how I'm going to end up feeling in a few years and it's making me kind of depressed. The thing is, I'm still young, and I can still do stuff and, well, I don't know, live my adolescence to the fullest? Did that sound stupid? Probably. But yeah. I feel like I need to go out more. I need to have more fun instead of wasting each day but at the same time I feel like it's too late. Ugh. I just wish that I spent my time better in the past few years. Like, I look on facebook and my news feed has all this shit of people doing fun shit and going out and enjoying themselves and I just kind of sit there and envy them. Like, the thing that sucks the most is that those people who look like they're having a fucking blast are like, well, the beautiful, popular kids and then there's me who was so awkward and ugly and ugh but now I feel like I've actually gained some self-confidence and I actually feel like I've become prettier or whatever (god I sound so dumb right now) but like honestly I would never be able to live the way those kids do and do the things they do and I'll probably just grow up and look back at my teenage years and cry. Cry because I like the feeling of crying and cry because I wasted my youth. Okay I'm just rambling about dumb stuff on my mind and I'll just shut up and go to bed now.

goldie

So like I forgot to do my weekly post last week so like let's just pretend nothing happened and I'll just post some shit here for this week's weekly update. Besides, it's not like I had anything interesting to say considering my life isn't exactly interesting.

Friday, August 24, 2012

Hehe look it's me. TWO OF ME. God I've been spending way too much time on Photobooth. My sister bought a MacBook Air a few days ago and I can't stop taking photos of myself on Photobooth because the quality is fucking beautiful and for some reason it seems like it makes everyone (well, I'm not sure about everyone, but me at least) look pretty. Hehe. But wow I really want a MacBook for myself! My dad said he'll get me one if I get into UBC, but seriously at this rate, I'm freaking out because I don't think I can make it in. I really gotta work my ass off this school year. I heard that my cousin didn't make it into UBC Sciences (which is what I'm trying to get into) and that the minimum was around 96%. Okay, that being said, I AM FUCKED. I don't think I can get 96%, yet alone 90% in math. Oh god. I'm going to have to no-life school and shit. I'm even considering not participating on the school volleyball team this coming school year because I really got to get my shit together and work harder in school. And volleyball makes me so tired, and I have a practice or a game like almost everyday and then by the time it's over I get home, shower, eat, and I'm tired as fuck, and then I got to do my homework and study. But the thing is, every single year of high school, I've been on the volleyball team, and I don't want to miss one year. But also at the same time, my coach last year when I was on the senior team kind of sucked the fun out of volleyball for me so I don't know. I gotta decide soon though because I think volleyball tryouts begin during the first week of school, which is in less than 2 weeks. Ugh.

Speaking of school starting soon, I received my schedule in the mail! I'm happy that my day 1 and day 2 are, like, pretty balanced, so that each day I have an elective (since I'm only taking 2 electives). It would suck pretty bad in my opinion if every other day I had, like, all academic courses. So yay. My (temporary) schedule goes as follows:

Day 1
1-1- Biology 12
1-2- Calculus
1-3- P.E.
1-4- Pre-Calculus 12

Day 2
2-1- Free block
2-2- Chemistry 12
2-3- French
2-4- English

So like, it's kind of a bummer that I have both maths on the same day, but at least I have an elective on each day. But wow getting my schedule really reminds me of how close school is. I really don't want to go back to school ugh. I don't want to be in grade 12. I wanna be a kid foreverrrrr.

Anyway, I don't really know what else to say so I will leave it off with 'Goldie' by A$AP Rocky! ^_^


P.S. I realized I hadn't done at outfit post in so long. Hmm.

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Okay so I saw this dress at Nasty Gal's shop and I am seriously in love. Ugh wow. It's just so cute and I want it so so so badly. It's $58 but to be honest I'm really willing to spend that on this dress! I love how simple and cute it is with the lace cut-outs on it asdlkffhlkg I JUST WANT IT SO BADLY. But the thing is, my parents won't let me buy stuff online so I'm actually considering having my cousin order it for me and I'll pay her back or something. I need to do this asap though because I really don't want my size to run out. And then I'll cry.

dyed my hair!

Well hi, it's post #100!

No more roots! Yay! It's been a year since I dyed my hair and I let my roots grow to, like, almost my ears because I'm just lazy as fuck but never fear because things are all good now. This is the result of my box hair dye job that I did yesterday (with the help of my sister) and I think I did all right if I must say so myself! Hehe.

I used Dariya Palty's Caramel Brown hair dye. I was debating on whether or not I'm going to do a review-type of a post but whatever. I'll just go with the flow.

This is the second time I've ever dyed my hair, and I had used Palty last time I dyed it too, in the same colour. My friend told me about Palty last summer and after doing a whole lot of reading about it, I really wanted to try it out myself! What I love about Palty is that it actually dyes Asian hair. Like, my sister once used I think L'Oreal or some brand like that to dye her hair and the colour barely showed up. But compared to brands like L'Oreal, Palty has less hair dye in the box, and so I had to use 2 boxes. I think I bought them at around $13 per box. You can find them at the beauty section of T&T Supermarket, or go to one of those Asian beauty stores (considering I live in Vancouver, there's a lot of those around here, especially in Richmond).

The first time I used it, it was much much easier dyeing it considering my hair was even in terms of colour. The box comes with instructions (of course), a bottle of developer, a tube of hair colour, a comb applicator, a pair of gloves, and conditioner. You squeeze the hair colour into the bottle of developer and shake it (well actually, I just read that you should just roll the bottle.. but I shook it) until it is mixed thoroughly. Then screw on the comb applicator and apply it to your hair. The instructions are all in Japanese, but you can find pictures of English translated instructions by googling it. The instructions say to apply the dye starting from the back section of your hair to the front, and from the tips to the roots. The instructions then say to leave the dye in your hair for 20 minutes, but on a lot of reviews people did on Palty, they left it in for 40 minutes, so that's what I did too. After that, wash your hair (I washed it in cold water) until the water runs clear and then apply the conditioner that is provided.

This time, since I had roots, I applied the dye to my hair from the back to the front, doing my roots first. Then I waited 5 minutes (as the instructions said), and then applied the rest of the dye from the tips to where I left off from the roots. After I applied all of it, I left it in for I think 30 minutes. Then I washed it off like last time and applied the conditioner.

The colour of my roots matched the rest of my hair really well, but it is a little bit darker in this area in the middle of my hair. I think because I was running out of dye and that was the last place where I was applying it. But overall, it turned out pretty nice!

Next time, I'm thinking about going a little bit lighter, but I'm not entirely sure yet. But yay, I'm happy, and since I dyed my hair, I actually kind of like my hair again, since I hated it after I cut it. Hehe.

I got my hair cut and now I am sad.

live to the point of tears

Okay so I said I'd show you my purchases from my shopping trip 4 days ago so I finally did take pictures of them. So yay me. Those are my earring set from H&M. I don't remember how much they were and I'm too lazy to check but they were a little above $5. I only bought them for the skull earrings though. I don't exactly care for those bedazzled star earrings. And then I went to Bath and Body Works and I had a coupon where if your purchase is $10, you get an item of $14 and under for free, which is a pretty good deal I think.

I'm tired. And it's the morning and I just woke up. And I don't really have much to say. So, like, until next time, I guess.

So hot and gross and sweaty right now but on the plus side I just finished reading 'Invisible Monsters' by Chuck Palahniuk.

the internet died and so have i

I'm only kidding, my Internet did not die! But I thought up this quote that may or may not already exist and I thought I was really clever and stuff so just let me have my moment k.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Finally! SUMMER SCHOOL IS FUCKING OVER! No more homework! No more studying! No more waking up at 5:30 am every morning to try to review shit before a test! YES! I'm so happy! SO MANY EXCLAMATION MARKS! Okay I'll stop.

But seriously wow I survived 6 weeks of Chemistry. I mean, that's like over half my summer break, I believe. But yay I'm finally free! I can finally wake up whenever the fuck I want to and do whatever I want to without having to constantly worry about the next day's test or quiz or homework. I'm just so fucking happy I'm free now! I can finally begin my summer - my summer that should have began 6 weeks ago. Sigh.

Oh and since I don't have summer school or homework or studying to do anymore, I think I'll be able to post more on this blog! To be honest, this blog to me is just a place where I can keep my thoughts, outfits, etc for me to look at when I'm older. I really don't want to grow up, because I really like childhood/adolescence and the thought of adulthood scares me. I guess I'm just using this blog as like a diary, so that when I'm older, I can look back on this blog and think to myself this is how I used to dress, this is what I used to dream, this is how my life was, this is how I used to be.

So anyway, I went shopping after my final exam yesterday. My final exam went horribly, I can tell you that. Like, it was just so difficult and long and ugh. I barely had enough time to finish, and we had the standard 2 hour time limit. But ugh. I don't even want to think about it anymore. I'm just glad it's over.

So like yeah, I went shopping with my friends, Christina and Sandra today. Here's what I wore: 

american apparel shorts and t-shirt, wilfred cardigan, thrifted bag, aldo shoes

By the way, do you want to see how I looked like almost exactly a year ago?! Well like I thought I had changed quite a bit but looking at both of them side-by-side I kind of like my hair better a year ago.. I mean, I love the fullness of my hair now but I like the way the ends of my hair look a year ago. I'm getting my hair cut soon (and then I'm redyeing it) so I'm gonna try to ask the hairdresser to leave my hair unlayered and get a little bit of layers at the ends of my hair to make to look not so.. I guess, straight?

So about my shopping trip. I got a pair of earrings from H&M that are silver skull earrings! Well, it came with these weird rhinestoney star earrings which I don't plan on using, I just really liked the skull earrings. I'll take pics of it and post them later because I'm too lazy to pull out my actual camera. I also bought a fragrance mist in the scent Love Love Love as well as a small bottle of body lotion called Paris Amour from Bath and Body Works.

And here was my final exam's test divider! I actually really liked it, so after the exam I took a picture of it. Hehe.

I really feel like I have more to say but I'm rushing right now because I have to get ready for a family BBQ! So bye, for now!