daze-y/daisy

I feel like I haven't posted in a while but basically I will just do a short summary of my life.

So on Boxing Day I went shopping and I bought my prom dress from BCBG MaxAzria. It's like white and mesh and originally $600 but I got it for $300! I realized that I have this thing for dresses with mesh and cutouts and stuff hahah. Like, my artona dress had mesh and cutouts, my prom dress has mesh, and there's this dress from Nasty Gal that I have kind of fallen in love with that I will post another time when I'm not so lazy and when I'm not on my phone but basically it's white with mesh cutouts and chiffon stuff and to be honest it's like my prom dress but like different but very much the same. Hahah.

Also, I have recently gotten some new clothes like a pair of J Brand jeans, some blouses, etc. And I got a 2013 Moleskine agenda that's basically the same as my 2012 one except for the year (but I did notice after buying it that the 2013 agenda has a different calendar section in the beginning... like, rather than having an actual calendar with boxes and such, it is now just a list of the months and days with a single line next to each day). Oh and I also got a new EOS lip balm (my third one hehe). I got the honeydew one mainly because they didn't have the strawberry sorbet one I usually get and also because I wanted to try something new considering strawberry sorbet was like the only one I ever used. I'm really liking the honeydew one right now so that's good.

Anyway it's like 1 am now and I feel like I should change (since I'm still in going out clothes after going out for pho with my family for dinner) and go to bed. I'm not very tired right now though!

But tomorrow I really need to get caught up with stuff. I told myself I would start on homework like two days ago and so far I haven't been able to bring myself to do anything. Also I need to submit my first term marks to SFU but I need to call about a question but I've been too lazy to. And I really need to start working on my math homework since I have a test the second math class back from winter break! Ugh I don't even remember how to do anything or what I'm even doing in school right now. Well, I've got about a week left of my break. I've spent the first week not doing anything and now I actually have to do stuff. Sigh.

Well I suppose if I'm going to start on my homework tomorrow, I should get a good night's sleep, so I'm off to bed. Bye.

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merry christmas y'all

IT'S CHRISTMAS TODAY! To be honest though, it doesn't really feel like Christmas. It doesn't seem that festive this year (for me, at least) and it didn't snow sadly so I did not have a white Christmas (actually, when was the last time I had one?? Don't even remember anymore...).

But I will start off with a post of my outfit from I believe December 22. I wore this to the mall and I did a little bit of shopping with my sister and then afterwards I went to my a little Christmas potluck thing with my 

h&m sweater, bdg pants, tna parka, nine west boots, danier leather bag

I got my best friend's Christmas present and I got some chocolate for some other friends and yeah. I also tried looking for a dress for Winter Formal or something because it's gonna be sometime mid-January. Then at the potluck with a few friends (some bailed last minute -_-) we watched The Apparition. The Apparition was kind of creepy but it felt so short and undeveloped. So yeah, not really my favourite horror movie. In fact, I'll post the trailer right here:

Then we ate and some people had to leave and we played Twister and to be honest it wasn't very eventful but we planned to do another and hopefully next time people won't bail. And we'll watch another horror movie hehehhehe.

Then on Sunday I did my last day of volunteering at the gift wrapping service at Oakridge Centre. I touched so much Versace, LV, Coach, Michael Kors, etc hahahah. Because the mall basically has a bunch of designer stores full of clothes that I cannot afford so people buy shit from there and have us wrap it. So yeah. To be honest though I wouldn't trust a bunch of amateur teenage volunteers to wrap my presents but then again most of the customers were men so that explains a lot. But actually some people there wrapped so ugly and like it was just horrendous and the colours they did with the ribbons and bows didn't even match and I felt bad for whoever was going to receive it. God I'm rude but I'm just saying. And if you're going to say that it's not like I can do any better, honey I can do way way waaayyyyyy better. Hahah. I should stop being a bitch.

Okay and then yesterday I had my Christmas family dinner/party on my mom's side! I actually like parties on this side better because my cousins are more my age and I can actually talk to them and stuff. So I will post a bunch of photos! Heheheh.

A bunch of presents and the Christmas trees! The party was at my aunt's house and her and her family are like diehard Canucks fans and they even had a tree dedicated to the Vancouver Canucks. Hahaha. It's so cute. Don't mind the ugly green table though. It's the table for my little cousins' train set thing. And all the presents ahhhhhHHHhHHh. It's because there's so many people in the family. In fact, there's so many people on both sides of my family. Like, on my mom's side, my mom has 6 siblings. Multiply that by 2 for their spouses. Then there's all the kids. Then there's my grandma and grandpa. That's why family dinners are always so fun in large families. Hahah. For presents though, I got $150 worth of Metrotown giftcards, some Crabtree & Evelyn things, nail polish. I can't remember what else. But I guess as we grow older, it's harder to get us stuff that we'll actually like.

This is what my brother did with my phone and me in the basement. He was like "Omg can I try something!?!?! I've seen people do this! Okay don't move!!!" and if I could use an emoji right now, it'd be that one that looks like a judging face.

It's one of my cousins, my sister, and me! I couldn't get a good picture. The first one, one of my aunt's flashes went on from her camera when she was taking the pic (ugh I bet in that pic my face looks ghastly white because of my spf 30 foundation *cries*). Then the rest were either blurry or blinking so yeah.

Then here's me taking selfies (as usual) in their washroom. Their washroom is so niceeeeee sigh. Like, the colour scheme is like all cream/off-white coloured with some hints of purple (but you can't see any purple in my pics hahah) and it's so pretty.

Then there's me post-party. I posted this because wow my hair looked so nice and I didn't want to go to bed because I really liked my hair. Hahaha. My hair always looks nice a) when I'm home b) before I shower or c) before I go to bed. Wah. But I got compliments on my hair at the party so yay. I just curled it with my 1 inch Revlon curling iron and I just curled all the hair away from my face while it was evenly parted so yeah.

Then today I just came home from the family Christmas party on my dad's side and to be honest this side I feel more awkward and quiet because most of my cousins are like old and when I say old I mean like in their 20s and some with kids now. So yeah. And the only time they talk to me is like a short awkward conversation about school that goes like "what grade are you in now?" "12" "oh you're graduating soon!" "yup" "did you apply for universities yet?" "yeah, ubc and sfu" "oh that's good well study hard" "yeah I will" and then slowly walk away from each other. I received a lot of compliments on my hair today from my aunts and my grandma and even one of my uncles. Hahaha. They said that I look so grown up now. But tbh I still want to be a kid at heart. :'(

And I didn't want to leave it pictureless so here is a quick photo of my outfit today (sorry it's a really horrible picture after the party before I got in the car and it was dark and this shitty flash can smd)

american apparel sweater, tna leggings and parka, dolce vita boots, danier leather bag

To be honest I've just been wearing the same shit every day now and it's horrible. I've just been so uninspired lately (fashion-wise). Anyway I'm going to end this here now because I'm still debating on whether or not I should go Boxing Day shopping and how early I should go. Okay bye.

don't fight earl

forever21 v-neck and denim shirt, thifted cardigan, tna leggings, american apparel backpack

I went skating today for PE class and my friends took some pics of me. So I decided to put this here as like an ootd kind of post, ya know. The first pic is me looking ultra badass while retying my skates, and the second photo is me with super fucked up hair (but in a way I kind of like how it looks heh) tying skates too... hahah but yeah.

Also it snowed overnight!!! It was so pretty when I woke up and I was so happy. But most of it has melted away now and it's just ugliness now.

And I'm too tired to type any more shit so yeah.

fuck school (jk but still)

I'm in the middle of writing bio notes but I got super bored (as usual) so I decided to make a post which I know is so lame but whatever. To be honest, I don't find bio to be that bad. In fact, these notes I'm writing aren't too bad, it's just tedious. I'm surprised at how well I can understand this shit I'm learning right now (which is the digestive system). But that's only because I'm retaking bio this year so I'm already familiar with everything haha. And I'm doing pretty well in terms of marks in that class currently and I think my teacher thinks I'm smart but I'm really not, I just learned it all already hahah. But oh well! I'm actually pretty proud of myself because my bio test isn't until Tuesday but I started these notes yesterday and I'm working at it today still which is like studying 3 days before a test which to me is pretty good! I mean, normally I study for tests the night before heheh.

I also have a math test but it's not until after winter break... like WHAT THE FUCK. I would rather have it before the break! But my teacher let us and the two other math 12 classes vote on either before the break or after and apparently a majority voted after. WHYYYY. Now I have to study during my break. MY BREAK IS RUINED. Like honestly SOME PEOPLE WANT TO ACTUALLY ENJOY THEIR BREAK YANNO. Okay.

Also I gotta look for scholarships still! The other one I am currently applying for is my in-school scholarship which is due Wednesday and I still haven't finished it yet. Oh wait no I also submitted my ubc application in time to be eligible for a scholarship thing too so yeah. Probably over the winter break I will look for more scholarships and actually do some and stop being such a lazy ass.

On a brighter note I recently applied for langara and got accepted.

Hahahahaahaahahaahaahaa I laugh because that is no accomplishment at all.

fuckin problemmm

Walking up an alley at 5 pm but it's dark and rainy hard af yay. I don't even know why I'm posting this but yeah. Okay.

Today I did gift wrapping and this time there were some people around my age group there and we talked and added each other as friends on facebook hahah. It's so weird making friends while volunteering because we get to know each other so well during that one day and then we're like "omg let's add each other on facebook!!!" etc etc and then after that we never talk again.

But yeah. I'm tired. I don't feel like writing more shit here. Maybe I will tomorrow. Plus I gotta think of a short story to write for english class and to be honest I'm great at analyzing text and work but I cannot for the life of me pull out the creativity to actually write something. Ugh.

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Things I did today

• actually wore rain boots
• volunteered for gift wrapping booth
• wrapped pretty presents
• made new friends

Things I didn't do today

• think of a short story to write for english class
• finish my in-school scholarship application
• homework
• eat healthy
• clean my room
• clean my makeup brushes
• 
  
• 
  
• everything

chum

I haven't posted in a while so here I will post a summary sort of thing of what my uneventful life has been like.

So I've been really busy lately with school and stuff and university applications and scholarships and ugh. I didn't think that grade 12 year would be so stressful but it is. But I'm just going to start posting stuff now that I was meaning to post but didn't in chronological order. Yeah.

I made salad. I don't remember when because it was so long ago but I made salad. Hahah. It has tomato, cucumber, mint leaves, edam cheese, thai basil, and olive oil with red pepper hummus on bread. AhhhhhHHhhhHhhhhh. <3

Here's me as a princess when I was 6. I posted this for #tbt on Instagram but yah I wanted to post it here too. I was saying hello to peasants. Heh.

A bit over a week ago I drew Frida Gustavsson. This was my first time actually drawing someone (like, someone real, that is) and I think it turned out pretty nicely. After posting it on tumblr I got some advice such as shading the eyes a bit to make them seem more alive and adding more contrast between light and dark (shadow) so yeah. I'll definitely try to improve on my next one but I haven't had much time to actually draw more.

Oh okay this is just me being cool with a mirror effect thing just for shits ya know. Okay I know I'm cool so pls don't hate xo

Me chillin with some homies. As you can see we are very fab and no you cannot sit with us. AND YES I JUST DID A MEAN GIRLS QUOTE OMG SOMEONE JUST SHOOT ME IN THE FACE NOW.

So the Mellowhype concert is in 4 days and the fact that I can't go is really making me sad adkjlfl;dg;ldh WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE 19+ WHYYYYYY. And then I started looking at my signed Golf Wang book and that made me even sadder fuck. And then I looked at Taco's autograph with the drawing of the taco and the heart and the "Hi =)" and omg I wish I could meet Taco again. I hope Odd Future comes to Vancouver again and hopefully they'll have a signing or another photo show or something because I would really love to see them again and I would love to meet Taco again wahhhhhhhhhh. He is beautiful. Okay.

The sky was pretty here. I think this was Saturday or something. But yeah.

This was me before we went out to eat dinner with my grandparents. We had lobster and I don't know what it's called in English but it's like crispy Peking duck pancake stuff (MY FAVE) and ahhhhhhh it was delicious. But then I was eating my favourite vegetable which is like sauteed pea sprouts (not the pea shoots..  I mean like pea sprouts that are like hollow or w/e inside and sauteed with garlic and stuff) and then I FOUND A FUCKING CATERPILLAR IN IT. UGhhhhhhhhh. I was so grossed out because it was like green caterpillar in the midst of my pea sprouts... I could've ate it... aSADSfDSFKdjgdfgdgdg DFKg

Okay anyway here's me after the dinner taking selfies when we got home. Hehehe.

Here's me at the library yesterday. I finished my personal profile/supplementals yesterday in the library for my UBC application! This library was so cool looking too, it's the central library in downtown. The architecture is so pretty. Hahah. I was on like the 6th floor so you can't really see shit out the windows but down there are like food places and I got myself some bubble waffle after yayyy. *flashes asian peace sign*

Here's me being sad in the library. OOH did I mention, while writing my supplementals, I listened to the entire Goblin album by Tyler the Creator (fucking beautiful) and Numbers by Mellowhype (but I like BlackenedWhite better... but it's still good hahah) and I was like 20 minutes into LiveLoveA$AP by A$AP Rocky but the Internet got fucked up and the Youtube vids stopped buffering!!! Ughhhhhh so I decided that it was probably just that one video so I tried buffering the album Camp by Childish Gambino but it didn't work either. Then I cried. Jk I didn't but it was very depressing. Hard times man. Ya feel.

hEY this is not in chronological order. This was from like last week. But it's pretty, eh? Hehe. Oh well, too lazy to move it. It shall stay here. Okay yeah.

And finallyyyyyy ME TODAY. Forever 21 shirt, TNA coat, TNA leggings, Nine West shoes. Yeah. I got a new TNA coat btw! It's the one I'm wearing here. It's so warm and cozy and nice and yay. I got it from Aritzia. In fact here, lemme post the website's photo of the coat since you can barely see it in this weird angled photo. It's called the Verbier Parka and I love it. Hehe.

It's beautiful, isn't it. It's $275 but my cousin works at Aritzia and got it for me 30% off so yay.

Okay now let's just appreciate Earl Sweatshirt's song 'Chum' because it's beautiful (hey that's like the word of the day, I keep using it):

Also I got my report card last week and it's pretty good! 5 A's (bio, chem, english, french, PE) and 1 B (math). ^_^ And just last week I joined at art class during one of my free blocks so I'll be expecting another A for my next report card. Hehehe.

Okay I'm done.

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I'm on my iPhone typing this right now so let's see how this goes haha. I'm supposed to be doing homework right now but to be honest I just don't feel like it. Actually, when do I ever feel like doing homework? But anyway, we had no school on Friday so it was a long weekend but I left my homework for last minute. I hate how I always do that ugh. I really need to work on time management and stuff but I just can't bring myself to. I mean I know I should be motivated since this is grade 12 and I really want to get into UBC but I'm kind of hopeless right now. I still have so much shit to do like actually finishing my UBC application and like applying for scholarships and ordering my grad photos but I just keep avoiding it. I think because those things basically signify me growing up and me having to graduate and leave high school and soon become an adult and I just don't want to. I know I say this all the time but I just don't want to grow up. I don't feel ready to. In fact, I can tell that I'm getting stressed out about this even when I'm not thinking about it because last last night I had a dream that the entire school year passed by and I was graduating from high school and I was so depressed and I kept thinking like, oh my god the school year passed by so fast. And I know it won't be THAT fast but I know that's how it'll feel once I actually reach that point in my life. I'm someone who hates change. I don' t like things to change drastically in my life and part of growing up is changing. I don't know why I am, like, dissecting my feelings and thoughts right now but I think this is just me avoiding homework again. I wish I could be one of those people so are excited to graduate and are ready to embrace life after high school but I for one am not. I think that's also why I've avoided getting my drivers license and a job, because those are associated with being more grown up. I should just shut up now because I sound so stupid and naive. I wish I could tell someone or ask someone how I could change my perspective on all of this but I know the only answer I will get is that this is all up to me or like part of growing up or some shit. You know what? I should go and so my homework now. Bye.