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Life is pretty lame right now. I fell asleep with my makeup on on saturday night and I woke up on sunday with a gross lil sty thing on the bottom part of my right eye. Well actually it doesn't look that bad at the moment but idk I hope it doesn't get worse. I went to the doctor and she told me to do warm compresses and I also got antibiotics. I rly hope this clears by saturday because it's my friend's filipino debut and I am sooooo not down to not be able to wear contacts or eye makeup (but honestly even if its not gone by then I'll prob be a rebel n do it anyway lol).

I went to Aritzia today and did a lil bit of damage to my wallet. I finally jumped on the skort bandwagon!!! lol well not yet. They didnt have my size in the colour I wanted (white) so they tracked one down from Calgary and now they're sending it over. It's currently on sale for I think $45?? I also bought a cute black Wilfred tank top for $36 (it looked rly nice with the cream/ivory coloured lace bralette I was wearing at the time!!! hehe). I had to immediately leave the mall after bc I'm like already broke and shopping was so not helping :(((

#prayforjasmine2014

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I recently made a text post on tumblr and I'll post it here as well:

lately ive been feeling rly inspired to change my perspective on life and way of thinking. for the past 8 months or so ive been feeling very low, emotional, tired, and sad and ive been lacking the motivation to do well in school and more importantly take care of myself and my body. all i did was cry and complain and lose myself in my own negativity but after stumbling upon so many positive posts on tumblr about learning to love, be comfortable, and be happy w yourself, as well as joanna kuchta (i know shes like the latest trend now or w/e but i honestly look up to her bc of her positive msgs), ive come to realize that i cant keep going on like this and that i need to make changes for myself bc things wont get better unless i put in the effort.
so here are some things i am planning to do/change abt myself for the better:

• i will take care of my body. i will drink 8 glasses of water/day (since i currently literally only drink like 1 glass). i will exercise and go jogging like i did last summer. i will actually take off my makeup and brush my teeth and put on my retainers before bed instead of being lazy. i will get enough sleep.
• i will try to stop judging everyone based on their looks. i for one am some1 who does this far more than it is probably healthy. i know its fun to judge others and pick ppl apart based on their physical appearance but i will try to stop that bc it only makes me a bitter insecure person.
• i will love myself. it is not bad to love urself. u are not self absorbed or full of urself if u love urself (to a certain extend i suppose). it just means u are comfortable w urself and that is a good and important thing.
• i will not get caught up worrying abt what everyone thinks of me. i will not stress over other ppls opinions of me.
• i will stop comparing myself to other ppl. there will always be someone whos prettier, smarter, etc and thats ok. it’s irrelevant.

i know this is all easier said than done and it wont happen overnight and some of these things idek how i will make happen but i will try my best and take baby steps toward thinking positively, gaining self confidence, and loving and taking care of myself bc i deserve it!!!

I feel like it's necessary to also have this post by sunpeach on this blog as well:

how to cure sadness!!!
my dear fellow bloggers…. a way too big amount of you is feeling sad and you guys need to end this. imma help you

1. please cry. it doesnt make you weak to cry, it will only make you feel better, cry as much as you want, please!
2. share your feelings. it may be with your parents, a close friend, your followers, or you could write a huge rant about how you feel down in your diary. i’ve done that and it did help me to clear this out. 
3. treat yourself with food you like!!! dont feel guilty about it. have that chocolate, those chips, the ice cream thats waiting for you in your freezer
4. now change your mind. do something you like, maybe its art, music, sports, you could read a good book, watch a comedy, go walk your dog, cuddle your cat… or even… study…. 
5. build yourself a tag with posts that make you happy! i have this tag thats filled with cute animals. how can anyone be sad at the sight of fluffy lil buddies? ??!? 
6. make yourself a happy playlist with songs that make you happy, remind you of good memories, etc. tbh this song makes me so very happy these days, but maybe thats just me. this playlist will be precious!! 
7. last but not least, take time. breathe. dont feel bad for being sad, its normal. if anything, i am here (and im sure so many other ppl are too) to talk to you whenever you feel the need. 

:-))) luv u all 

As well as this article by Fast Company.

Six simple rituals:

1. Drink a glass of water when you wake up. Your body loses water while you sleep, so you’re naturally dehydrated in the morning. A glass of water when you wake helps start your day fresh.
2. Define your top 3. Every morning ask yourself, “What are the top three most important tasks that I will complete today?” Prioritizes your day accordingly and don’t sleep until the Top 3 are complete.
3. The 50/10 Rule. Solo-task and do more faster by working in 50/10 increments. Use a timer to work for 50 minutes on only one important task with 10 minute breaks in between. Spend your 10 minutes getting away from your desk, going outside, calling friends, meditating, or grabbing a glass of water.
4. Move and sweat daily. Regular movement keeps us healthy and alert. It boosts energy and mood, and relieves stress.
5. Express gratitude. Gratitude fosters happiness. Each morning, think of at least five things you’re thankful for. In times of stress, pause and reflect on these things.
6. Reflect daily. Bring closure to your day through 10 minutes of reflection. Asks yourself, “What went well?” and “What needs improvement?”

all me

brandy melville shirt + cardigan, h&m shorts, a wang bag, topshop flatforms

Lately it's been hot as heck and I'm lovin it!!! I love seeing the blue sky and being blinded by the sun and sweating and feeling like I'm dying and craving the breeze of a fan. It finally feels like summer and it's really really great. Just lOOK AT THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE

Vancouver never ever ever ever hits 30 degrees but yay looking at this makes me so happy. Too bad I'm inside most of the time studying or doing nothing though. I finished my biol 112 course and did worse on it than I had hoped (78....) but now I'm currently taking eosc 114 which is natural disasters and hopefully I'll do really well in this course since I heard it's really easy. My course registration was today and I literally just spent hours panicking and stressing over my worklist/timetable and even now I'm not satisfied with it but I guess for now I'll have to wait and see if seats become available for certain lectures and etc. I'm currently majoring in oceanography and biology but I'm hoping to switch to something like physics (or geophysics?? idk yet). The shitty thing is that I don't have the prereqs to apply for a physics specialization at the moment so hopefully after second year I will have met the requirements and hopefully I can get in. Everything is so stressful though, I mean like the courses I take now is based on what I need for the future but I don't know what I want to do in the future so I don't know what courses to take!!! :-(( like I've already fucked up cause I needed a certain biol course (140) in order to take a lot of the 200 level biol courses, and I can't do any higher level physics courses because I don't have phys 102 and I fucked up badly and failed calc 2. For now I'm taking astronomy 101 which is about the solar system so it seems fun. I wanted to take 102 which is stars and galaxies but from what I heard, the course requires a lot of work and effort and since it's only offered in term 2 (and 101 is only in term 1) and since I'm already taking phys 102 and calc 2 in term 2 I feel like it would be too much since I really need to focus on those 2 courses and do well in them. That was a really long and probably grammatically incorrect sentence but oh well. And on top of that I still need my arts credits.... fuck me

Ok enough with this negative stuff let's all breathe and talk about cuter things like these 2 lace bralettes I got from Aritzia!!

They were on sale (not by much though) for $22 each, originally $25. Bralettes are obvs super in right now and I kind of had to get them. I still don't really know how to wear them (like outfit-wise) but I'm sure I'll figure something out. Bralettes are just so cute and comfy and this, my friends, is the perks of having small boobs!!!

Oh yeah and recently I've been really looking into skateboard decks and stuff because I've finally decided to actually start skating which is something I've wanted to learn since like forever but I've always been too lazy and hesitant. For sure I'm gonna get a 5boro deck because I love the designs and I've read super good reviews on them. I really wanted the mint Cinco Barrios deck but I can't find it anywhere online, like everywhere I've looked says it's outta stock which is so lame. I'm also thinking about getting the Jimmy McDonald deck Philadelphia City Hall deck but I'm not sure cause it only comes in I think 8 and 8.25 and I think I should get something smaller.

Yeah that's about it I guess. I should really study for my midterm that's tomorrow now.