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I can't believe high school is soon coming to an end. My math teacher wrote "3 weeks left" on the board and that's when I realized that it's really almost over. Grad ceremony is literally tomorrow and I'm getting really anxious. I'm not ready for this!! I'm actually really dreading crossing the stage. I'm not exactly in the mood to walk across the stage with 2000 people watching me. The thought of it is terrifying. I pray that I don't trip as I walk. That's why I'm wearing my wedges instead of pumps, because the wedges are far easier to walk in! I'm still so scared though. I'm probably going to forget how to walk. Oh god.

And then prom is nearing too! But the difference is, I'm actually looking forward to prom! I can't wait to dress up and FINALLY wear my dress after having it just hanging in my room for 5 months! But yeah, I should get back to my studying now. I've got a chem test tomorrow that I am absolutely fucked for. Bye.

P.S. I finally dyed my roots! It's a bit darker than the rest of my hair because only after I washed the dye out did I realize that I had left it on for 10 minutes earlier last time. Oh well.

if the world was blind how many people would you impress?

Haven't posted in a while!! I had photos to post but I was just far too lazy to, but now I finally will. I think these photos were from May 15. May this year has been really nice in Vancouver. It has had its really warm days and some shitty rainy days but overall it's been (I think) warmer than the previous years. Like even right now, looking out my window, the sky is bright blue with some clouds. I swear, if it was last year it'd be raining still. But yeah. So here are the photos y'all:

That's about it. I don't really have much to say about these photos. I just get bored when I'm walking home from school.

Anyway, my grad ceremony is in less than a week!! It's on May 29 and I'm starting to get really nervous. We received our caps and gowns and etc last week and after trying them on, as cheesy and dumb as this sounds, it's really starting to sink it. I'm fucking graduating. And I just realized how not fucking prepared I am for this. Wow. I'm not ready to walk across the stage. I'm not ready to leave high school. I'm not ready for university. I'm not ready for the real world. I'm not ready for anything.

But for now I've got homework to do.

it's too late

still lost, still here

Yesterday I had a doctor's appointment for my back because for the past couple of weeks I felt a sharp pain under my right shoulder blade whenever I laid down or sat up. But a few days before the appointment, my back felt completely fine again but my mom insisted that I went anyway. The doctor told me that I most likely pulled a back muscle. Oh and I had Qoola before my appointment hahah. Afterwards, my sister, cousin, aunt and uncle went out to eat. We went to a place called Hapa Izakaya which was located right by Kitsilano beach. Like, the beach was literally across the street. The weather was really nice and I wish I had gone to the beach but oh well. The food there was really good though. It's modern Japanese cuisine. We went during their "Hapa Hour" which runs from 5:30-6:30 pm daily. We ordered a lot, but my favourites were probably the Tuna Avocado Salsa Dip, Negitoro (which is chopped Albacore tuna belly, spring onions, and toasted garlic bread) and Ebi Mayo (which is Tempura prawn and spicy mayo sauce). Afterwards, we went to Richmond and got some bubble tea at Bubble Queen. I've seen so so so many posts of pictures of bubble tea from this place from people I know and it looked so good, so finally yesterday I lost my Bubble Queen virginity hahahah. They have so many really good looking drinks, and they have all these bubble tea drinks that were like chocolate bar flavoured. Like, Ferraro Rocher, Lindor, Maltesers, Kit Kat, etc. I ended up just getting a mocha bubble tea though. Unfortunately they ran out of pearls (it was like 9 pm though) but it still tasted pretty good.

Today we didn't have school so my friend Karman and I went to Richmond and we got Bubble Queen again!! This time I tried the Maltesers bubble tea and it was actually really good. But I didn't ask for half-sweet which I should have and it ended up being too sweet for me hahah. But when I first tasted it, it was so good. We also got mango and chocolate bubble waffles. After that we walked to Aberdeen and we went around Daiso and looked around and it brought back so many memories because I haven't really gone to Daiso since I was a kid. Then we bussed to Metrotown and we went shopping for a bit. We went to the Apple store and took a bunch of pics on photobooth (how typical of us) and then we went to McDonalds and sat there eating a large fries and being fat. And that's about it.

Here's a pic of me with a beautiful tan from wearing Vans with shorts this past week:

urban behaviour dress, forever 21 denim jacket, danier leather bag, american eagle sandals

And also here's a pic of the bubble tea we had today:

(I really like the filter I have on this bbt pic!! Hahahaha I'm so lame)

It feels like the weekend is over already but in fact the weekend hasn't even started yet which I'm so happy about. And I just finished eating my piece of durian. Okay and I'll end this post with a nice song:

Okay bye y'all

"i am free and that is why i am lost"

topshop shirt, american apparel shorts, calvin klein parka (lol i'm holding it), american apparel backpack, vans shoes

This was my outfit on Tuesday that I didn't have time to post!! I was gonna make a post but afterschool until like 6 pm I was at school helping out grad committee with sorting and tagging grad gowns which was a lot more work than I thought. Then when I got home, I ate, napped for a couple hours, and then studied for my biology test. Life's busy lately for once hahahah. I'm really happy though because there's no school on Friday and it's supposed to sunny (I think 23 degrees celsius?). I really want to head to the beach, because I know that a lot of people went on Sunday when it was like 26 or 27 degrees and I went shopping but I later regretted it because IT WAS PERFECT BEACH WEATHER!! And the fact that the weather's like this and it's only the beginning of May is insane. But I think next week, it's supposed to rain again and the weather's gonna turn back into shit. But anyway, Saturday I'm going to a friend's birthday dinner, and Tuesday I'm going to see a school theatre production show thing, and then Wednesday I have to pick up my grad gown. And I have tests on top of that. Yay.

Ooh so on Sunday, my friend and I took sticky pics and we made them super kawaii!!

We're cats!! Hahahahah. Sadly though the picture was like brightened and everything so my eyebrows are like nonexistent and really bugging me because my BROWS ARE LIKE MISSING!! But other than that we look really cute right? Hahahahaha.

But omg the thing that's bugging me the most lately is like literally bugs. Silkworms, actually. Like, those gross green things that hang on those silky invisible string things off trees and just dangle there. Ughhhhh. I can't even walk to school without being paranoid of those things. I'm so scared that I'll walk into one and it'll be in my hair and ughdsjksdjds. The thought of it grosses me out so much. On Sunday I was walking home from the bus stop which is literally like one block and when I got home I looked in the mirror and saw a silkworm in my hair and screamed. Like please silkworms CAN YOU NOT. I sound like such a girl hahahhaha but for real silkworms need to not exist. For now I'll just walk in the middle of small streets to avoid trees as best as I can. Or do what I did today and walk like right behind some girl so that if there's any silkworms hanging they'd hit her and not me hahahaha

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I don't know but this is me right now bye

just like honey

Here is a picture of me for yall because I really like my hair here (insert that sassy girl emoji here hahahah)

I can't believe that high school is coming closer and closer to an end wah. My grad ceremony is on May 29 which is less than a month away and prom is sometime mid-June and I'm getting really anxious and scared because I really hate change and I don't want to leave high school. I think I should just really try to enjoy this last bit of time here before it's over instead of worrying about it all the time but I really can't help it. And it really doesn't help that we're doing a unit about growing up and adulthood in French right now.

I've realized that lately I've been spending a lot of time just lying on my bed. I used to not understand how people could possibly spend so much time in their room but now that I have this Macbook and my iPhone with me I can just lie here and listen to music and not care about anything. I don't know. I just love my bed now. It's so comfy and nice. Plus it's a nice place to just think about stuff.

Anyway tomorrow I'm going shopping with my friend Karman and we're gonna get gelato and I'm really excited!! We're going to La Casa Gelato which apparently has the most flavours available here. According to their website it says they have "518 flavours and 218 on site at all times". Plus I hear they have a durian flavour ;))) It's so weird though because I have driven past this gelato place hundreds and hundreds of times when I was younger whenever I visited my grandparents in Chinatown (which was quite often) but I've never stepped foot in there. I remember always looking at the gelato place though and I always thought that the exterior looked pretty ghetto. Hahahah

Lately the weather has been so so so nice! Like, just take a lot at this!!

If this isn't beautiful for Vancouver weather in early May then I don't know what is!!! Hahahahah I'm so so happy though. I mean, usually the sky is all ugly and cloudy and sad to look at but lately it's just been bright and blue and wonderful. Yayyyyy

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