wildfire

I know I posted this earlier already, but lately I've been listening to this nonstop. At first, I just liked it, and now I love it. I even downloaded it hahahah. There's just something so beautiful about it, especially the end. The ending (at around 4:33) just gives me this feeling that I'm not quite sure how to describe. It's a bit of sadness and regret? I don't even know. It just makes me start thinking sad thoughts. But despite that, I just cannot stop listening to it.

I should be studying for math right now because I have a test tomorrow morning but I just really had to post this again and actually dedicate a post to this song.

we're not happy til we're running away

I really like my hair here.

I realize that lately I've been spending more and more time in my room. I don't know. I just like being alone with some music, and I just like sitting here and thinking about things. I barely use the computer anymore. I just mainly use my phone, or sometimes my sister's Macbook.

I think I'm addicted to my iPhone. I really do. It seems like I can't go a day without it. No matter what, no matter where I am, I just have to go on my phone and check like every social networking site. I'm just sitting there on my phone in my spare time, in class, at lunch, afterschool, like ALL DAY. It's quite sad really.

My lock button on my phone is currently broken and has been for weeks now but I'm just far too lazy to get it fixed. Plus, I can't bear the thought of giving the Apple store my phone for repair and not having it, even for a few days. I'm kind of joking kind of not joking about that. Hahahaha. But I think I'm going to do it soon, because my friend told me that when her sister broke her home button (different button, I know, but still), she took it to the Apple store and they just gave her a new iPhone!! If that's the case for my phone, then YES PLEASE because I really hate the scratches and whatnot on my phone. Also, can I ask for a white one??? No, like, seriously.

Anyway it's either I'm sick right now or I have allergies or both. Like, my nose is so stuffy and plugged and my throat is sore and itchy and I can't stop coughing or sniffing. I can actually feel it getting worse and worse. I hate being sick and I thought my theory of washing my hands like 10 times a day with Bath & Body Works foaming hand soap to prevent sickness actually worked. Unless this is just allergies. Okay.

And to make matters worse my lower back actually hurts and I think it's from my trampolining field trip. I already know that my posture is really bad. Like, I get a lot of lower back stiffness and soreness especially when standing a lot or shopping (sometimes I pretend to bend over to look at stuff on the lower rack just to crack my back hahahahaha it's sad). I even went to the doctor and she said I should correct my posture and she put me in a position that was apparently 'good' posture and it was the most uncomfortable thing ever. She recommended that I go to a physical therapist but I've been way too lazy to book an appointment but I realize now that I probably should. My doctor didn't specify what my bad posture was but based on some internet research I think I have mild kyphosis lordosis. I think.

That's about it, bye y'all.

let's be nothing, i heard it lasts forever

Well, there's like less than 2 months of school left. I guess this is really it.

I'm really starting to panic, because leaving high school is something that I'm scared of (in case you can't already tell because I literally talk about how scared and sad I am about this every fucking day now). In the beginning of the year, I told myself to enjoy this school year, and actually make the best of my last year of high school. I'm not so sure if I have really done that and now I'm beginning to fill up with regrets and unhappiness at the fact that I didn't spend the "best years of my life" (is that what adults call the teenage years???" actually living. If that makes sense.

"You are afraid to die, and you're afraid to live. What a way to exist." — Neale Donald Walsch.

I think that quote really does fit me. Really. But I heard that I should spend the rest of my high school months left now enjoying them, rather than being scared that it's ending. I don't know if I can do that. I know some people are actually really excited to leave high school and enter the "real world". I don't think I can embrace it that way. All the responsibility and etc of being an adult is just something I am not looking forward to.

Plus, university seems like such a scary place. Here in high school, I like knowing like nearly everyone. I like seeing the same faces everyday in one building. I like meeting up with people at our lockers, eating at the caf knowing that everyone has a place in the caf (like Mean Girls hahahah), and having classes with the same people for the past 5 years. I guess I just like the familiar atmosphere.

Anyway, so far for universities I've gotten accepted into SFU Science and UBC Arts. Arts for UBC was my second choice though. My first choice was Science but they said that they'll reconsider my application mid-May. So I guess that means that I was close but not good enough and I'm in a way on the wait list??? This is kind of sad. I was really hoping to get into Science. But there's still hope!!

I really need to stop worrying about the future because I think it's making me not enjoy the present. But it's something I just push aside, because the thoughts just always resurface. Whatever.

P.S. when I was in grade 10 my dad said he'd get me my own Macbook if I get into UBC.... now he's saying that he doesn't remember saying that -_-

bitch don't kill my vibe

The shit I do at 3 am...... I'm supposed to be writing an essay on the theme of appearance versus reality in Hamlet right now but really I am so not in the mood to do it. The sad thing is that my teacher assigned us this essay before spring break and look at me now, over a month later pulling an all-nighter to write it. Why I always do this to myself, I don't even know. I'm such a lazy shit.

To be honest though, I kind of like all-nighters. I mean, not the homework part, but just the house being so nice and quiet with no one to bother you because they're all asleep. And I can just sit here and think about stuff and listen to soft music and do whatever. I don't know. I like it. I just don't like being tired as fuck for the rest of the day hahahah. I wish we didn't need sleep. We waste so much time sleeping. But, like, we need to sleep, or else we'd all be dead.

It's like 3:21 am right now and so far I've drank 2 cups of milk tea (basically I just make it with red tea, sugar, and 1% milk or sometimes evaporated milk). I'm wide awake so s'all good. For now. Hahaha. I think I'm going to post some pics and whatever right now.

tna shirt, forever 21 denim jacket, garage leggings, vans shoes, danier leather bag

This is what I wore today. I did switch out the leggings for my coral American Apparel shorts, but then changed back to leggings again because I thought it was a bit too chilly. The weather has been surprisingly nice lately. Like yesterday I was actually able to wear my acid wash skirt (I'll post a pic below). I think the temperature has been around 15-17 degrees celsius and yeah I know it's not even that hot but considering the fact that it's April and it should be ugly and rainy like how Vancouver usually is, this weather is beautiful. Normally I hate walking to school but walking with clear skies and the blossoms on the trees (I should have taken a pic of that!! Maybe when I walk to school today hahah), I actually enjoy it.

Today I went on a field trip for PE class to the Extreme Air Park in Richmond which is basically like a huge indoor trampoline park and I think it opened recently. It was actually pretty fun but got boring quickly. I mean, there's only so much jumping you can do before you get tired (especially if you're like me and you can't flip or do any shit). But overall it wasn't that bad. I didn't take any pics (I should have) because I didn't carry my phone with me on the trampolines because I didn't want to drop it and I felt it would be too annoying to hold, but I'll post a pic I pulled off of google just now:

365 days of dining

Yeah, this was it. This is just the main area though. There was also a foam pit, dodgeball area, basketball hoops, and a half-pipe trampoline area.

I also bought another shirt from Brandy Melville (I couldn't resist). It was only $18! I returned the bustier/tank top with the cut-outs and they didn't have any more in stock so I got store credit and bought this too. I'm sad because I still want that tank!! I hope they get it restocked. Omg also when I showed this shirt to my dad, he looked at it and said, "what is a vibe?" oh my god hahaha.

american apparel top, topshop skirt, american apparel backpack

Okay and here's my outfit from yesterday (well, Wednesday). It's such a bad pic but I didn't take any better ones. So yeah.

And that's about it I think.

OOH no wait also, I discovered an artist named JENI and I really loved this:

Okay and that's about it now. I have to get back to my essay because I have less than 4 hours to write it now. Ugh. Okay bye!!

heaven is a place on earth with durians

I love durian!! I think durian is probably my favourite fruit ever. I love everything about it - the taste, the smell, ahhhhhhhhh. Like, I just don't understand at all why people think that it smells bad because it smells like heaven to me.

This is just frozen durian but normally I eat fresh durian. But asdkldfkjfdlgkgdf call me weird but durian makes me so happy. ^_^

i never really liked you (that much)

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forever young

Well, I'm graduating high school in about 2 months and the fact that it's nearing and nearing so quickly is making me really scared. The school year so far has gone by way too fast. I don't want to grow up. I'm not ready yet.

"YOU KNOW THE FUTURE IS REALLY HAPPENING WHEN YOU START FEELING SCARED."

grad lounge

So on Wednesday (April 10) it was Grad Lounge and here are some pics I stole (except for the last 3) from people because I didn't take many pictures myself so um yeah.

Grad Lounge was okay. But the food was absolute shit. That's all.

let's be nothing, i heard it lasts forever

Okay so I said I'd post my spring break purchases and I decided that it's time to actually do it. So yeah.

Brandy Melville, $18

I saw this posted on Brandy Melville Canada's facebook page and at the moment, I swear we were infinite... omg dies okay KIDDING!! But at the moment, I FELL IN LOVE!! Today was Brandy Melville's 1 year anniversary event at the Vancouver store and so I went with my friend, Kimberly. I bought this tee and the bustier below. To be honest it wasn't that great because there weren't very many things on sale and most things were just their regular price. There was a live DJ and cupcakes for the first 200 people (I got one) and you could enter in a draw to win a $100 gift card. But other than that, it wasn't that special. In fact, it was way worse because normally the store doesn't have very many people in there (based on the times I went during spring break), but today the store was full of people and can you imagine 20 people waiting in line for 2 change rooms??? After waiting in line for about 15 minutes, I gave up and headed to the cashier line-up (also only 2 cashiers with like 193497439 people waiting) and I decided to just purchase these two items without trying them on first.

Brandy Melville, $28

I fell in love with this bustier/crop top the moment I saw it too!! It has an exposed zipper and triangular cut-outs in the back. I was actually looking for this during spring break but they said it was out of stock, and that I should come back in a couple weeks and yay they had it and I bought it!! It said "one size fits all" which I was HIGHLY skeptical about because um it's a bustier come on now, but luckily it fit me literally PERFECTLY. HOWEVER I am really fucking mad because as you can clearly see on the photo to the right, the strap to the right is SEWN ON TWISTED. Like, actually. I was so excited to wear it too!! Plus there were only like 2 more left on the rack and I plan to head back their next weekend to return it (when I go to the Topshop Vancouver Prom Party on the 21st) so I'm scared that they won't have it in stock anymore again. :(((( But I'll just take store credit for now, but I REALLY hope they have more in stock because I desperate want to start wearing this beauty.

Topshop, $8

This shirt was actually $10 but it was on sale for 2 for $16 so my friend and I both got one each! It's a basic cotton crop top that is very similar to the American Apparel one (but 9203404845 times cheaper). I haven't worn it yet because it's very cropped and I haven't found the right occasion to wear it too. Plus I don't have high enough pants to wear it during the spring time. But I could wear it in the summer with some high waisted shorts.

Topshop, $14

Another crop top from Topshop! It's just a basic cotton crop top that goes to about my belly button with a high neck thing. Whatever you call it. I've only worn it once so far and it was to Spring Fling and yeah. But omg I think my parents shrunk it in the wash!! It looks visibly smaller but I've been too scared/lazy to try it on to confirm ya feel.

Topshop, $14

ANOTHER CROP TOP (lol I'm not obsessed). Wow it looks like shit in this picture because it's been shoved into my dresser all crumpled up for a while now and so it looks like this. But yeah. It's basically a white tee that has the sleeves cuffed and sewn. The bottom is like a cut-off. Yeah.

Topshop, $40

I've been wanting a circle skirt since forever and I finally got one!! The original price was $50 but I got it for $40 because of the student promotion thing where students got 20% off their purchase. The colour is a bit off in this photo, maybe from the lighting when I took the picture or maybe from the filter but it's definitely lighter in person. But yeah, it's an acid wash denim circle skirt and I love it. But I still want a normal denim one and a black one (like the American Apparel ones!! SO CUTE).

H&M, $30

I bought this peplum dress originally for Grad Lounge but I felt like it was too formal for it after asking other people what they were gonna wear. So afterwards I bought a lace dress (posted below) that I wore instead. I decided to keep this dress though because it's really cute and I need a nice little black dress and also, I think I need some sort of peplum in my closet. Besides, it was only $30 so whatever.

Forever 21, $35

I finally have a more fitted denim jacket!! Again, the colour of the denim is a bit more rich in this photo. Like, it's less blue and a bit lighter in person, but again I think it's because of the filter or lighting. But anyway, it's just a simple denim jacket and I really like it.

Urban Behaviour, $20

This was the dress I bought for Grad Lounge! Normally I would NEVER EVER enter Urban Behaviour, but hey I was broke from all the clothes (and food, especially poutines) I bought. I'm actually really surprised because some dresses there were actually pretty cute (althought some were just hideous monstrosities). I didn't check out their other clothes, but everything is super inexpensive and yeah. So I think this is pretty good for a last minute dress purchase (since I bought it like 3 days before the event). Urban Behaviour reminds me of that other store though... uhh Sirens? Yeah.

I also bought the jeggings from H&M that I got for $10 on sale that I wore here but I couldn't take a pic of them because they're in the laundry right now. Hahaha. And now that I think about it, I forgot to take a pic of a swimsuit from Garage that I got. It's basically a polka dot bandeau on top and a black bikini bottom. So yeah.

And that's about it y'all

P.S. ahahaha I just noticed the lack of colour of my purchases

left alone

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG. I haven't stopped listening to it since it was posted like 2 days ago. I am in love. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

you're gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

Today I went shopping for a Grad Lounge dress. Well, I kind of already had one (a black peplum dress from H&M) but it felt too formal and whatever for this event so I went to the mall to try to find one (besides I had an optometrist appointment there anyway). At first I was totally hopeless and sad because I tried on so many dresses and they all either didn't fit or looked ugly on me. So as a last resort option, I went to Urban Behaviour (I never shop there... NEVER) and surprisingly, I actually found this dress that I liked:

It's basically a lace dress with a bustier on top and best of all it was only $20!!! Okay I still have my doubts about this store because of some of the frilly tulle monstrosities they call dresses there but I'm glad I gave it a chance??? Hahaha okay that's about it.

I'm supposed to be doing math review right now and I haven't exactly been very productive and I have a test tomorrow and I don't really know much. To be honest I'm still in spring break mode and I just don't feel like doing anything since it is third term now but yeah. I should turn off my phone now or something because it is a huge distraction. IT'S AN OBSESSION. Omg okay bye.

buy the stars

I feel bad for not posting at all for so long but hi. To be honest I don't even remember what I last posted about hahah I think it was before spring break? Well spring break has come and gone and I just finished my first week back and life is horrible again because school. Spring break was just so nice and relaxing (even though it would've been even nicer and more relaxing had I been in the Dominican Republic!!!) but ANYWAY yeah. I basically shopped and ate poutines (which I now regret but at the same time don't) and sat at home wasting my time. Yeah. And then I was so productive that for the entire 2 weeks I didn't do my homework until the night before school. Basically I have lame pics on my instagram (@jvsminecho) of stuff from spring break. Okay yenno what, this post feels really sad and pathetic so I'll just add some pics from my ig to compensate. Er this is a lot of photos but w/e

american apparel crop top, thrifted cardigan, h&m jeggings, tna parka, vans shoes, danier leather bag

This was me shopping on who knows what day bc I'm too lazy to check

And then I fell in love with Kashi Go Lean Crunch cereal!! I normally eat it with Original Silk Milk and half a banana but today instead of banana, I ate it with Welch's frozen berries and it was SO DELICIOUS

Okay I didn't post this pic on ig but now I kind of want to. I don't quite remember what I put in here since I literally just take apart my fridge and throw anything I can find into my salads so based on what I see and remember, this salad has baby arugula, baby spinach, avocado, boiled egg, mint leaves, basil leaves, almond slices, with a baguette with cheese melted on top.

Then I spent nearly an entire day in my bed watching Sofia Coppola films because she is one of my favourite directors ever. And then that's my milk tea and ignore the dirty screen please

wilfred sheer button-up, american apparel bandeau bra, h&m jeggings, calvin klein parka, h&m necklace, vans shoes, danier leather bag

And then there's me and my friend (she totally ruined my ootd pic)

And then I took more ootd pics bc I'm super cool (not)

And here's a pretty pic of the sky and for some reason I remember that it was a Saturday

And then the day after that sky/cloud pic I went to my aunt and uncle's house and my cousin, my sister and I make semi-successful macarons (the purplish ones were supposed to be purple but when we baked them they turned a weird bluey gray colour with purple on the inside....). Both are just plain macarons and the purple one had (if I remember correctly) chocolate ganache filling and the pinkish coloured ones had hazelnut buttercream filling

Then my friend and I went shopping AGAIN (I think this was the third time???) and we ate some poutines at a place called Smoke's Poutinerie (on Granville) and the above is the prime beef deluxe poutine and the bottom is the bacon cheeseburger poutine. It was pretty good but the cheese curd's texture was kind of... rubbery? Yeah

tna tank top, vintage/secondhand denim jacket, garage leggings, vans shoes, danier leather bag

And here's my outfit from that day

And here's some baby pics of me!! I was so cute hahah. I posted the first one for #tbt and the second one I didn't post but now I kind of want to so yeah

And then this past Sunday I went down to Seattle for a day and I took a pic during the car trip there

And here's some selfies I took in the car at Seattle and also this is my fb profile pic currently lol

I bought these Nike Free Runs in the states for $90 (which is a lot cheaper than here)! I wanted them in pink but I settled for this because it was like the only colour at the outlet store at Seattle Premium Outlets :((((

talula tank top, lord & taylor cardigan, american apparel shorts, vans shoes, danier leather bag

And then on Monday I went shopping again but this time with another friend and IT WAS SUNNY AND WARM AND BEAUTIFUL OUTSIDE (let me just emphasize that in caps because Vancouver's weather is not normally like this especially in March/April!!!) so I got to wear shorts yayyyyy

And then on Tuesday I posted this #transformationtuesday pic because LOOK AT DAT CHANGE hahah left is grade 8 and right is grade 12. THE BROWS THOUGH BEHOLD MY GRADE 8 BROWS AND CRY

And then on Thursday I made a salad for myself and it had some spring salad mix (too lazy to check what's in it), tomato, carrots, boiled egg, green onion, mint leaves, and pine nuts.

I'M FINALLY DONE. Hahahaha. So basically yeah, this was my life between the time I last posted and now. I think I'm gonna make a separate post next of all my spring break purchases because I blew a lot of money and my wallet hurts.

P.S. if yall were wondering, the apps I use to edit my ig photos are AfterLight, VSCO Cam, Squaready, and sometimes Aviary

OK BYE