girls just wanna have funds

It has just occurred to me that school starts in literally 3 weeks and I am not okay with this. The thought of not going back to high school and seeing the same people again is so weird. I'm not prepared for university. Like, I'm not mentally prepared nor am I physically prepared because I HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANY OF MY BOOKS OR MY UBC CARD OR EVEN VISITED THE CAMPUS YET wow I'm really fucking myself over. At least I'm slowly getting there. I recently finally fixed up my timetable bc I was missing my Math 184 workshop bc they were all full but then they opened a new one and I registered and tbh right now there's only like 5 people registered for it which will be so so so awkward. I really need to get my shit together but I'm really not in the mood to and I don't think I will be any time soon.

I have work later today from 6-10pm and I am not looking forward to it. I mean like most people don't look forward to work bc it's work but for me I'm literally DREADING it because I have to work at the checkstand with ACTUAL customers for the first time ever and I just learned how to use the till and everything like a few days ago and I CAN'T REMEMBER THESE CODES AND EVERYTHING ugh I really need to breathe but tbh I'm gonna look fucking retarded. My manager said that everyone's nervous at first but I'm like way past nervous, I'm like gonna have a panic attack. I hate working with people. I hate people. What am I doing. On the plus side, my friend who works at Safeway as a cashier too said that I'm lucky that I'm starting on a Monday night because it should be pretty slow (apparently she started on a Saturday and it was horrible hahaha). I don't know how I'm gonna ring things through and serve customers while looking friendly still. Having a bitchy neutral face doesn't always help.