dream: sleep paralysis/lucid dreaming + dream within a dream???

Yesterday I had such a weird and creepy dream(s) and I'm not quite sure what to make of it. I should have written this this morning so that I had the dream fresher in my mind but I've been thinking about it throughout the day so I still remember it, but the details are a bit fuzzy. I'm honestly not quite sure what happened but I think I had a dream within a dream and I may have had a lucid dream??? I didn't realize it until I woke up though.

So I fell asleep listening to 'Bel Air' by Lana Del Rey on repeat. I'm not quite sure how I fell asleep. I was incredibly tired. I remember having sleep paralysis, but I'm not sure if this occurred WITHIN my first dream or in reality. If I did have sleep paralysis in reality, that could be linked to the lucid dreaming (or at least I think it was lucid dreaming) that I experienced. Maybe I had gotten sleep paralysis but I was just far too tired?? I mean I do regularly experience sleep paralysis (but not so often that it is a problem). The creepy thing is that I usually get sleep paralysis during nights where I get these weird vibes of something being in the room. Maybe I'm just freaking myself out, but I've noticed that whenever I feel a presence in the room when I'm trying to sleep, I get sleep paralysis. For instance, sometimes I'll literally see something, almost like a dull flash, fly by in the darkness but I try to dismiss it. Then soon after I experience sleep paralysis, and no matter how many times I've experienced it, I panic each time.

This time seemed different though. Maybe I was too tired to even care? But I'm sure I would have still panicked. But regardless, I began dreaming. I had many short dreams. I can't quite remember them but I know one of them had to do with high school, and I was with some high school classmates on public transit, though I'm not sure and I don't remember where we were headed. The scary part was that in between each short dream, I would experience sleep paralysis, and the sleep paralysis felt much longer than it normally would. The sleep paralysis I experienced in between each dream was also in a dream, and therefore I guess the short dreams were dreams within a dream. DREAMSEPTION??? Hahaha back on a more serious note, during each bout of sleep paralysis, I would panic and try so hard to move but I could not. And then, each time the sleep paralysis ended, I would be transported into another dream. At one point though I remember breaking from the sleep paralysis and running to my living room because my dad was there (as he was in reality). Basically, the scene and everything in the dream where I was experiencing the continuous sleep paralysis seemed just like reality, but it was actually a dream. Anyway, when I ran to the living room in my dream, I don't know why but I was too scared to them what was happening, so I just had some small talk with my dad and brother who was also in the room. Soon after I retreated back to my bed assuming all was well, but when I did, I fell back into the cycle of endless sleep paralysis and short dreams. I don't quite remember the details of the short dreams I had towards the end, but I remember that I kept having dark and eerie thoughts and then the dreams started being nightmares and they resembled the things I would think of (I tend to come up with fucked up scenarios in my head which was obviously not helpful in this situation lol). I remember one of the short dreams toward the end. I was standing in my basement and it was quite cold and dark and I was standing by the basement door that leads outside. I had thoughts about a crazed murderer breaking in, and before I knew it, there was banging on the door and someone was trying to break in and I ran.

I finally broke free from my dream(s) during one of the sleep paralysis "intermissions". I was frozen and I couldn't move and suddenly I woke up from it all. Right when I woke up, I jumped right out of bed in fear that the cycle of sleep paralysis would continue and my earphones came out of my ears and I was shaking and trembling. I looked at the time and it was about 2:15am if I remember correctly. That means throughout the entire ordeal, only about half an hour had passed, though in my dream it felt like an eternity.

So yeah, that's what happened in my dream last night. I'm not sure if towards the end I was lucid dreaming or not because I've never had a lucid dream before (at least I don't think I have), and it seemed like anything I thought of would come true. I should have thought of cute guys!!! Lol ok bye (◡‿◡✿)

dream: drowning to death

Okay I haven't done a dream post in forever but I think this dream deserves one. This was kind of weird.

So I can't remember exactly where my dream started but the setting outside was really similar to my school/campus with like buildings and a lot of people walking by. I entered one building and it looked like the waiting area of Artona, the place where I took my graduation photos, and there were a lot of guys in suits and girls dressed formally. I didn't think much of this and I dismissed it because I just saw them as like business students or something. But then as I went to the back of the room and through a doorway, it lead me to this weird place with a bridge (the bridge had no walls on the side, just a long block to walk on single file. At the bottom was a pool, but it was quite a distance below. So I crossed the bridge, and there, there was a double wooden door which I also went through which lead outside. It led to the outside of a building at my school called the Irving K. Barber Learning Centre and we were at the side that kind of looks like a castle. Outside, I saw some familiar girls who were also headed in the same direction as me. As headed up the cement stairs to enter Irving, suddenly a crazy Asian man with very small eyes, bushy angry eyebrows, and a flushed red face with some scratches and bruising ran towards us from Irving, aiming for one girl in particular, recalling an incident that happened between the two that had to do with rape or something like that. He charged at her, and she ran back through the wooden doors and her two other friends tried to stop him. I too ran through the wooden door and as I was running along the bridge, I noticed that the bridge had two other bridges branching off of it in the middle headed in opposite directions. I was stupid and ran left, curious about where the bridge would go. I believe I slipped and fell into the pool. As I landed, I wasn't in my body anymore, and I was transported back outside to the place where I was in the very beginning. I remember I was wrapped in my duvet this time (as I always am at home lol) and I went back to the bridge area. I saw the blur of a body in the pool, so I dove in and swam down and I saw my dead body at the bottom. It was weird looking at myself like that. I tried to pull my dead self up to the surface, and went I touched the arm, it felt weird and rubbery and heavy and floppy, like that feeling where your arm is completely numb after  sleeping on it for a long time. When I got my body to the surface, I hoped that my dead self would start coughing up water and wake up, but I didn't. My body was motionless and still. I decided that it was too late, I was dead, and I let go, and my dead body slowly drifted back down to the bottom.

dream: tornado + shaved head + asap rocky

Last night was really warm, so we all moved our mattresses downstairs and slept there. I had two dreams last night.

We were inside my house and suddenly I noticed a skinny tornado forming in the distance. Not sure of what to do, we just kind of stood there in our house watching the tornado come closer and closer. When it did come to us, it went right down my back alley (how unrealistic, right?) and basically just demolished trees and tore power lines and broke fences but it didn't do any other harm (yes, it is unrealistic I think). After it passed, we kind of just stood there and looked at the damage, which wasn't much to our home besides the broken fence from a tree falling onto it.

Then I woke up (I remember waking up, too) and I looked around, and remembered that I was sleeping downstairs, and then fell back asleep and had another dream.

This time, my friend Karman was there. We were doing some sort of photography course I think because we were at school, and some classmates were there, and Karman was going around taking pictures. In this dream, I had gotten my head shaved, and I liked it. I remember my friend taking photographs of me and I liked how I looked with a shaved head. I don't know. Then, when we were done, we went into an elevator which was like glass all around, even the floor, and we headed down. When we got out, we walked until we got to a familiar street (at the intersection of 49th Avenue and Elliott Street) and we began walking in the direction of our school. I saw a man and a woman walking behind us already and the man looked like ASAP Rocky but I didn't say anything. I was wearing my American Apparel denim backpack and suddenly the woman that ASAP Rocky was with called after me and asked me where I got my backpack. I told her it was from American Apparel and then I turned to the man and I asked him if he was ASAP Rocky and he smiled and said yes. We hugged and posed for a picture and my friend took a picture of us. Then, as we departed, I woke up.

dream: murder

I was really scared I'd forget this dream that I had last night but I kept thinking about it today so here goes. Some parts are kind of blurry and some parts I vaguely remember but oh well.

It began with my best friend, Christina, bringing this really cute guy with her when she met up with me. I did not recognize him nor do I recall what he looks like now but all I remember is that he was tall and had dark hair and was pretty hot. We all got into a car (though I forgot who was driving). Christina and I were sitting in the back seat and the hot guy was sitting next to the driver. We all got out of the car at my grandma (my mom's side)'s house. (I tend to have a lot of dreams at her house, I just realized.) My brother was there and so was I think my mom and my grandma and grandpa. We went into the house and I don't exactly remember this part very well but I overheard the hot guy saying something about how he was planning to murder someone soon. Someone in the house. I panicked and when no one was looking I slipped out of the house and ran. I remember running past my grandma's really pretty colourful garden and for some reason the sidewalk was surrounded on either side by huge plants but I kept running. It was kind of hard to run though... like, I felt like my legs just wouldn't run, kind of like trying to run through water. So I kept running to try to get at least out of eyesight because I was scared that the hot guy was going to murder me if he knew I left or something. I finally turned the corner where I knew I was safer and soon a group of little dogs came after me, growling. I freaked out because they were coming really fast at me and I thought they were going to bite me so (okay, I know, this is really really really mean and I truly would never do this in reality) I kicked the dogs away. (It sounds so harsh omg but that's what I did.) The dogs finally backed off and I remember running for a long time. I think I was trying to get home or something.

I remember running up the street away from my house though, in this small street. I was running towards the big street where there were cars. Suddenly though, I was in an unfamiliar kitchen/dining room area and Aaron Hotchner from Criminal Minds was there. He's an FBI special agent and stuff so at that point I knew that the hot guy must have murdered someone. But then they started talking about me kicking the dogs and animal abuse and I started panicking. And Hotchner turned to me and said something like "We know who the unsub is... you." And suddenly I was some nerdy looking caucasian male teenager. Like, I could see his point-of-view and everything, but I wasn't controlling what he was saying. He was saying something like "Why do you always have to be like that?!" and getting really mad. Then it was like the camera zoomed out from the teen's point-of-view and I was watching like a third-person.

Then suddenly, I was back to myself again and I was standing at I think it was a movie theatre entrance area with Christina. As we walked in, there was the clothing store that I have recurring dreams about. I went in, and Christina went off somewhere and disappeared. In this clothing store, it's filled with a bunch of clothes that I really like but it's so overpriced. The interior design of the store is really Urban Outfitters style with a lot of brown with a vintage-y old wood look to it. I remember passing by a really cute knit sweater with a wolf head on it that I wanted. I continued to look through the store (there didn't seem to be any other customers but I did see an employee or two).

Then, I woke up. The weird thing is that I woke up by myself at around 5:06. My alarm wasn't scheduled to go off until 5:30 am and I found it weird since I went to bed at around 12 am and I only got 5 hours of sleep so I normally wouldn't just, well, wake up like this. So I just laid on my bed for the next 20 minutes thinking about my dream and I kept trying to put a face to the hot guy but I couldn't remember what he looked like.

But that recurring dream of the clothing store I have is so weird. Like, I have dreamt about it like maybe about 5 other times, but each time I don't have money and the clothes are so expensive. I've tried on shoes there before too. And I actually want to go shop there in reality but unfortunately this store is like nonexistent and made up in my head so yeah. Sigh.

dream: odd future

So I just woke up and I had a dream last night so I decided to write it down now before I forgot it.

It began with this girl I knew and was friends with in elementary school named Wendy and I going to the Odd Future concert (the one that I am so fucking excited to see hehe). We arrived kind of later than we were hoping to but we still got in and got an okay spot. They performed some songs (I don't remember which songs now, sadly) and I remember checking my phone and it said 12 am. When the show ended, we were filing out, but everywhere were different coloured doors as soon as we got out, and each member of Odd Future was standing there and everything and people started lining up to different people. I lined up to Tyler and when I got to him, he was really tall and I gave him a hug but I didn't take a picture with him, I don't know why, and I regretted not taking a picture right after my friend and I walked away. Then, for some reason, a bunch of us went back to the concert area and there started throwing these giant balls around and the OF members all went back onto the stage and said some things that now I forgot exactly what they were. It was 1 am by then so we decided to just go home. Suddenly, we were on the 3rd floor of my school (Wendy doesn't go to my high school, she goes to a different one so it was kind of weird). We walked past her sister who waved at us. Then we walked down the big street by my school on my way home. It was really dark out but we were walking and talking about a bunch of stuff, kind of like catching up. We were both holding a lot of stuff that I don't remember holding at the concert, like I was holding a textbook and a binder (like my school ones) and she was holding 2 textbooks and a binder but since it was a dream it felt normal even though right now it just sounds ridiculous. We walked down to a church that's a few blocks down that I volunteered at twice for a summer day camp. We went inside, and Tyler was sitting in there praying. We both thought that this would be a good opportunity to take a picture with him. But we didn't want to disturb him. But he saw us and waved and we waved back. And he came out and we were all in the church's kitchen. We decided that we wanted some food delivered so we looked up the number for a pizza restaurant.

And then I woke up.

Weird.