i'm not living, i'm just killing time

I painted my nails a black french tip mani last week but I didn't post it until now. Wow ignore my hideous cuticles, I didn't really do anything to them bc they didn't look that bad in person but in these pictures they look revolting. But yeah. And the photo on the right does not include my thumb bc I broke that nail and I didn't bother to paint it bc it just looked too weird and yeah.

So on monday I worked at the checkstand for the first time! It wasn't as bad as I expected. I did ask for a lot of help from the nearby cashiers though (I hope I didn't annoy them too much hahaha). I got a sign in front of my line-up that said "cashier in training" kind of like a warning sign I suppose but at least that means the customer can't really be too angry with me since I'm just starting out anyway. But yeah, I worked pretty slowly and I took a long time to find PLU numbers on my paper but it wasn't too bad. Time actually passes by really quickly too! Probably because I'm so busy freaking out and trying not to fuck up. And I just received my first paycheck and I'm so happy because I'm actually making earning my own money.

And also, uni starts in nearly 2 weeks!! Ahhhhhhhhh I'm not fucking ready. Yesterday, me and a few friends went to UBC to check out the campus and everything and it made me realize that like wow, I'm going to be attending university soon. Like, I don't think the fact that I'm no longer a high school student and the fact that I graduated really sunk in yet. I'm still a kid!! Hahaha. I really not really to leave high school yet, but I really should embrace change. BUT I DON'T LIKE CHANGE. Ugh. Wow okay. I should really figure everything out and start buying books and get my shit together because, well, I'm done with high school whether I like it or not. I have two weeks. Two fucking weeks to get my shit together. Great.

alpine snow

I painted my nails white with OPI's Alpine Snow. My nails are so much longer now because the 3 weeks I have gel polish on for prom I didn't cut or pick at my nails at all. Tbh every summer I go through this phase where I grow out my nails and take care of them and everything and then once school starts again I get all stressed from all the studying or bored in class and I start picking at my nails again. Plus it's discouraging because in the beginning of the school year, it's volleyball season so I have to cut my nails short so I don't break my nails. But this year will be different because high school is sadly over and I'm headed for university where for the first time in 5 years I won't be playing volleyball because let's be real volleyball in uni is fucking insane and everyone is tall and really good and I don't have time for that.

Next week a bunch of people from my elementary school grad class want to have a little reunion and have lunch or dinner together so that should be interesting. My elementary school was kind of in between 2 high schools so which high school you attended depended on which side of the elementary school you lived on. So a lot of these people I haven't seen for years, and haven't talked to for years, so I think it'd be kind of awkward. Well I don't know, not that the situation would be awkward, but I would be. I mean like I've actually changed quite a bit throughout high school and basically everyone thinks so too. But yeah, we'll see how that goes.

Next week a few friends and I are planning to go to high tea which I have never been to before but have always wanted to try. I think I'm going to wear the Brandy Melville dress I bought yesterday so I'm really excited for that. It'll be pretty fun too to catch up with some of this people because we gossip a lot when we're together hahaha.

For now I'm just going to take a shower because I went out for a jog and did a bit of a workout today and I've cooled down now but I feel pretty gross. Bye ^_^

"you shall attain great wisdom with the passing years"

I feel like I haven't been posting a lot lately. Because I haven't. I think I will try to actually post things on the days that it happened rather than bunching them all into one big collective post every several days. So yeah. But for now I will have to do a (hopefully my last) collective post and yeah!

I'm trying to think of where to begin because I want to go chronologically..

Okay so (based on the date the file says I took the picture) on December 27 I painted my nails sparkly and stuff, kind of like New Years nails I guess:

I used OPI's Rainbow Connection. It's a really nice glitter nail polish in my opinion. Like, it has little circular pieces and it also has larger hexagon shaped pieces. You can easily control how glittery you want your nails by applying more coats. I decided to just paint it on plain nails (without a colour underneath.. I did put on OPI's base coat first though). If you're the type of person who likes to wipe nail polish off the brush at the rim of the nail polish bottle, I suggest you don't do that too excessively with this nail polish, because you lose a lot of hexagon pieces like that, and you only get the little ones. But yeah. My nails look so short here and sorry for my horrible cuticles. My hands and cuticles and everything have been so dry this winter season. My nails are definitely much longer now because it's been over a week. I've been taking silica supplements now (I'm not sure if it's actually working or not.. hahah) but it claims to strengthen hair, nails, and connective tissue. I used to take biotin supplements but after my bottle ran out, I never bothered to buy another one because I didn't really see that much of a difference (but then again my biotin was only like 500 mcg or 1000 mcg.. can't remember anymore!).

Then I watched some good ol' nature documentaries with milk tea.

This is BBC Life narrated by David Attenborough. I would really love to watch the entire series and also the entire series of Planet Earth but I can't find any, I guess due to copyright and legal issues. My only option is to either borrow it from the library (at the library they lend out the DVDs of the series separate, since there's like 4 separate DVDs for the 10 episodes of BBC Life) or buy it. The issue here is that if I want to borrow it from the library, the waiting line for it is sO FUCKING LONG and I want to watch it all together!! And the issue about buying it is that the special edition DVD of both BBC Life and Planet Earth (both narrated by David Attenborough) costs $100!!! I'm poor you know. Hahah. But thinking about getting that entire series makes me so happy... 17 hours of nature documentaries AHHHHHHHhhhHHhhH *faints*. Hahaha. But I talked to my dad about it and HE'S ACTUALLY CONSIDERING GETTING ME THE DVD SET OMG. I'm shocked. But I don't want him to blow $100 on this for me. Maybe I'll pay for part of it. Hehe. But if I do get it, I will spend my spring break watching it while everyone's going to the Dominican. Sigh. Well, not everyone. But for S-Trip (sounds like strip I think that's the point) stands for Student Trip and basically anyone from my senior grade can pay and go to the trip during spring break together and this year they're going to the Dominican. I don't know how many other high schools are participating but basically the people going all go together and spend spring break together and apparently it's like so much fun and partying and wah. I'm sad that I didn't sign up to go, because you had to sign up last year. The cost is like a couple thousand though which I don't know if my parents would be willing to pay for it but it's too late now.

So on New Years Eve I didn't really do anything actually. Hahah it's so sad actually, but yeah. Last year I watched Fight Club over the New Year and this year I watched The Amazing Spider-Man even though I already watched it before many times. GOD DAMN ANDREW GARFIELD IS HOT THOUGH. Hahah. But to be honest Peter Parker is supposed to look like a loser nerd but he looked like a really hot skater... Okay anyway.

On New Years day I went to dim sum with my family and grandparents in the morning. There was a weird fish in the tank at the restaurant.

The food was really good though. I liked it. We ate stuff like that lettuce wrap with the vegetable stuff inside (which I've never eaten for breakfast before, only for dinner hahah) and yeah. We got fortune cookies at the end and mine said this:

I'm not quite sure what that means but all righty.

I also made up some New Year's Resolutions that I really hope to follow this year (but don't I say this every year.. haha)

• be happier
• be more social
• eat/be healthier
• stop procastinating
• make my parents proud

And yeah! Hehe ^_^

Then yesterday I went shopping (in fact, I went shopping for like 4 days within a week) and watched a movie with my friend Karman.

Here's my outfit (P.S. my hair looks red here.. IT ISN'T ACTUALLY RED, it was the filter Valencia ahaha):

h&m tank top, lord & taylor cardigan, j brand jeans, dolce vita ankle boots, danier leather bag

We watched Les Miserables!

It was such a good film ahhhhhhhhhh. I felt like singing everything I said after watching it. Hahah. Sometimes I think the singing got a bit long, but other than that it was so beautiful. I loved it. I had already watched the 1998 version in French class prior to my winter break, but this one was definitely way better. Haha. I actually teared up during some parts. But I didn't cry. I don't cry watching films. Okay. Haha. But still, it was so so great. I don't even know how to describe it. The music was so beautiful too. Wow. Okay.

Now I will post some clothes and other shit I got over this winter break!

 Dress from H&M that I'm planning to wear for Winter Formal with a pair of black suede wedges

 Lord & Taylor cardigan that I wore yesterday (in the outfit picture)

 Button-down blouses from (left to right) Wilfred Free, Wilfred, and Zara

 A pair of acid wash jeans from H&M

 A tank top from Club Monaco

 My 2013 Moleskine agenda!

 I've already started writing in it hehe

And my Artona group photo that my volleyball team ordered came in the mail today! We're planning to give this to our coach as a gift alongside some other things. ^_^

lost but now i am found

Okay I know, Pantone stuff is like the craze or whatever right now (I admit, I even have a Pantone cup myself... but it was from a while ago I swear!!). But anyway, I came across these nails and they are so cute! So I decided to just post it on my blog as maybe inspiration. I doubt I'll ever actually do nails like this (I always tell myself I'll try to but I end up not bothering) so yeah.

clouds in your eyes

omoimono

Saw these cute nails on my tumblr dashboard and I just had to post them. Wow I wish I could do my nails remotely as pretty as this. Sigh.

And on recent news, I just came back from the doctor's and apparently I have a mild case of food poisoning. Great. And I might have to give a poo sample for lab analysis hahahahahahahahaha

the end is where we start from

I went shopping yesterday at Metrotown to buy my friend's birthday present.

h&m shirt, american apparel shorts, calvin klein parka, vintage necklace (that you can't see), thrifted bag, nine west boots

There were so many people, but that was because it was Labour Day. I bought a black sheer shirt with a gold chain pattern on it from Forever 21 for myself! I'll post that later because as always, I'm a lazy ass. Yay. I also got my nails done! I got a french manicure:

To be honest, this was my first time getting my nails professionally done and I gotta say it was a pretty cool experience. I think I'm going to get my nails done more often now, that is, once I get more money, because I'm so broke right now. Haha.

we fell in love in the key of c

Okay I really fell behind on blogging sigh.

So on Sunday we drove down to Seattle for a day. Here was my outfit:

h&m shirt and parka, tna leggings, vintage necklace, thrifted bag, nine west boots

I bought a white Adidas Originals t-shirt, a Nike sports bra and a BCBG Max Azria dress for Artona (grad pics)! I'll post them later because I'm too lazy to take pictures of them at the moment but yay.

I also did my nails the day before:

Don't mind all the makeup and stuff in the background but I painted it with OPI's Alpine Snow and I believe I did 3 coats.

Hm I don't really have much else to say so here is a picture of me in the car during the trip yay:

if i could sleep forever

Products used: OPI Natural Nail Base Coat, OPI Pine Snow, Revlon Lunar, OPI Top Coat

I had been meaning to post a picture of my yin yang nails that I painted a week ago and here they are! My nails are starting to grow longer and I'm really happy. But yesterday, one my thumb nails broke so I was really sad because it's not as square-ish anymore. Sigh.

I'm hoping to do an pastel ombré nail next! Probably when these nails start to chip more, but this OPI top coat really works wonders.

P.S. Ignore the chipped left thumb nail please. Haha.

Here's a lovely song from a while ago that I forgot about:

nail inspiration

I found some really cute nail art on a blog called omoimono and looking at these make me so excited to paint my nails gradient/ombré. I probably won't do the jewels on it but these nails are really cute.

nail inspiration

glitter fade by kayti j., sea it? by christa s., mint+pink gradient by clarisse l., floral by sherry w., bling bling by elaina y., funfetti nails by gabriela t.

Some nail inspiration I found off of a beauty website (click source links to view). I really want to do some gradient this summer.

flower gurl

I painted my nails and I'm happy. I used OPI's Natural Nail Base Coat, Revlon's Lilac Pastelle, OPI's Alpine Snow (for the petals), Revlon's Electric (for the flower's center), and OPI's Top Coat. This was kind of a first-time-test-out-painting-some-flowers kind of thing, so I know they're not perfect (*looks at middle finger's larger flower because I kind of messed up and had to enlarge it to cover up the ugliness*...) but from afar I think they look all right. Plus I've gotten plenty of compliments on them on how cute they are, so I'm content with my nails.

I'm still trying to grow out my nails, since I'm trying to get over my nail-picking habit. It seems so simply to just stop picking at my nails, but I guess not. It's just that I get horribly bored at school and without thinking, I just start picking at my nails. It's horrible and it makes me mad. Hopefully I'll someday break this habit.

if i could sleep forever

These were my nails in the summer. Sigh. I miss them. I have a repulsive habit of picking at my fingernails so my nails are all short and ugly. But during the summer, somehow I overcame this habit, and I allowed my nails to grow to the point where I could shape them into square nails and everything. In fact, I was so into nails during the summer that I would obsess over them: file them to perfection, watch Youtube videos of nail care, and etc. But once school resumed, my habit returned, and alas, my nails are hideous once again. I think I pick at them when I'm bored, and at school I am constantly bored. Looking at pictures of my nails from several months ago makes me really, really, really, really want my long nails back again. Sigh.

But on a happier note, I made a flickr a month ago. I like pictures of skies. Don't mind.