Yesterday I had such a weird and creepy dream(s) and I'm not quite sure what to make of it. I should have written this this morning so that I had the dream fresher in my mind but I've been thinking about it throughout the day so I still remember it, but the details are a bit fuzzy. I'm honestly not quite sure what happened but I think I had a dream within a dream and I may have had a lucid dream??? I didn't realize it until I woke up though.
So I fell asleep listening to 'Bel Air' by Lana Del Rey on repeat. I'm not quite sure how I fell asleep. I was incredibly tired. I remember having sleep paralysis, but I'm not sure if this occurred WITHIN my first dream or in reality. If I did have sleep paralysis in reality, that could be linked to the lucid dreaming (or at least I think it was lucid dreaming) that I experienced. Maybe I had gotten sleep paralysis but I was just far too tired?? I mean I do regularly experience sleep paralysis (but not so often that it is a problem). The creepy thing is that I usually get sleep paralysis during nights where I get these weird vibes of something being in the room. Maybe I'm just freaking myself out, but I've noticed that whenever I feel a presence in the room when I'm trying to sleep, I get sleep paralysis. For instance, sometimes I'll literally see something, almost like a dull flash, fly by in the darkness but I try to dismiss it. Then soon after I experience sleep paralysis, and no matter how many times I've experienced it, I panic each time.
This time seemed different though. Maybe I was too tired to even care? But I'm sure I would have still panicked. But regardless, I began dreaming. I had many short dreams. I can't quite remember them but I know one of them had to do with high school, and I was with some high school classmates on public transit, though I'm not sure and I don't remember where we were headed. The scary part was that in between each short dream, I would experience sleep paralysis, and the sleep paralysis felt much longer than it normally would. The sleep paralysis I experienced in between each dream was also in a dream, and therefore I guess the short dreams were dreams within a dream. DREAMSEPTION??? Hahaha back on a more serious note, during each bout of sleep paralysis, I would panic and try so hard to move but I could not. And then, each time the sleep paralysis ended, I would be transported into another dream. At one point though I remember breaking from the sleep paralysis and running to my living room because my dad was there (as he was in reality). Basically, the scene and everything in the dream where I was experiencing the continuous sleep paralysis seemed just like reality, but it was actually a dream. Anyway, when I ran to the living room in my dream, I don't know why but I was too scared to them what was happening, so I just had some small talk with my dad and brother who was also in the room. Soon after I retreated back to my bed assuming all was well, but when I did, I fell back into the cycle of endless sleep paralysis and short dreams. I don't quite remember the details of the short dreams I had towards the end, but I remember that I kept having dark and eerie thoughts and then the dreams started being nightmares and they resembled the things I would think of (I tend to come up with fucked up scenarios in my head which was obviously not helpful in this situation lol). I remember one of the short dreams toward the end. I was standing in my basement and it was quite cold and dark and I was standing by the basement door that leads outside. I had thoughts about a crazed murderer breaking in, and before I knew it, there was banging on the door and someone was trying to break in and I ran.
I finally broke free from my dream(s) during one of the sleep paralysis "intermissions". I was frozen and I couldn't move and suddenly I woke up from it all. Right when I woke up, I jumped right out of bed in fear that the cycle of sleep paralysis would continue and my earphones came out of my ears and I was shaking and trembling. I looked at the time and it was about 2:15am if I remember correctly. That means throughout the entire ordeal, only about half an hour had passed, though in my dream it felt like an eternity.
So yeah, that's what happened in my dream last night. I'm not sure if towards the end I was lucid dreaming or not because I've never had a lucid dream before (at least I don't think I have), and it seemed like anything I thought of would come true. I should have thought of cute guys!!! Lol ok bye (◡‿◡✿)
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