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So two days ago I went shopping and watched a movie and and had all you can eat sushi for my friend's birthday and I thought I'd just post my outfit photo.

h&m sweater, talula skirt, uo tights, danier leather bag, dolce vita boots

First I went shopping on my own because I needed a black dress for yesterday's Artona photo (people on my volleyball team wanted to do an all black dresses photo). So I decided to quickly buy a dress and I found one from Forever 21 that was $30 (I'm on a budget hahah). I'll post pictures from my Artona sessions in my next post but basically my dress is like black lace on gold.

After that, I met up with some people who were there for my friend's birthday. We watched Paranormal Activity 4 and to be honest it wasn't that scary. Like, it was the type of scary where there's all this shit popping out at you, but it wasn't like long-term scary. Like, I wasn't scared of everything afterwards. If you get what I mean. Haha. And there were parts that were kind of funny actually. Like, at first it was like holy fuck and then you realize how funny the situation actually is and we started laughing. Like when she drove through the garage door. HAHAHA. I wish one of my friends went with us to watch the movie though!! She chickened out and went shopping on her own while we watched the movie, and the other people there I didn't really know because they were my friend's other friends so I was kind of awkward because they all knew each other except for me.

Then, for dinner, we went and ate all you can eat sushi and barbecue at Shabusen. My friend's other friends didn't stay for dinner, and my friend who was too scared returned from shopping, and two other friends joined us, so it was a bit more normal and less awkward for me. Haha. After the all you can eat, my skirt waistband was so fucking tight on my stomach because the waistband doesn't stretch at all and it was horrible. Haha. Here's me in the washroom:

Okay yeah. Haha. Well next I'll post the Artona pics!

P.S. I MADE AN INSTAGRAM! Hehe it's: jvsminecho ^_^

everything is shit right now

Wow it feels like I haven't posted in forever. Well, it's been a little over a week but I've been so busy lately that everything just feels so long and ugh.

Basically my life for the past 4 days has been volleyball playoffs. And I found out that me + caffeine = good volleyball player. Haha. The first 2 days, I was so tired, with about 4-5 hours of sleep per night, and my volleyball playing was just absolute shit and I feel bad because I think I contributed a lot to our loss in the semifinal game. But the last 2 days of the playoffs, I grabbed myself a vanilla latte from Starbucks prior to the game and wow I was so loud and energized on the court. Like, my reaction time was just so much faster than usual. Plus apparently I couldn't stop moving. Like, I just couldn't stand still during the timeouts. Hahah. And I actually got most of my serves over (which I had been struggling on basically all season) and my hits were better, and my passing. Haha. And now everyone on the team teases me about my coffee thing. Everyone, even my teammate's mom (who is just so cute!!), says stuff like "did you get your coffee today?!" and "somebody get her more coffee!" and "VANILLA LATTE!!!!" to me hahah. But yeah.

But I'm just so stressed out right now. Tomorrow (rather, today considering it's like past 12 am) I have two Artona group photo sessions and I am NOT ready for it. Like, I still need to do some shaving ahaha and I'm just feeling really nervous about doing my own hair tomorrow and I have to go and get my makeup done and also I NEED A FUCKING DRESS BY SUNDAY. I have a group photo on Sunday with some girls on my volleyball team and a couple guys from the senior boy's team and they want to do all black dresses but I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING BLACK DRESS. So I need one ASAP but I'm picky as fuck about dresses so I'm getting really stressed and nervous about finding a dress by then. Tomorrow, before I get my makeup done at Oakridge, I think I'm going to look around for a dress. But the thing is, the stores there have such pricey dresses and I really need a cheaper one that I can afford and pay for myself. Then I'm going to be occupied until the evening with Artona and everything so I'm not going to have time afterwards. Then on Saturday my friend is having a little birthday lunch and then we're going to watch Paranormal Activity 4. If I can't find a dress tomorrow (I mean today.. whatever) then I'll quickly go to Metrotown earlier and as a last resort try and find a dress at Forever 21 because it'll be cheaper. Like, I'm so stressed out not only by the dresses but by my money situation overall. I should have worked this summer but I didn't. Fuck. Why didn't I?! I'm so fucking dumb and lazy. Like, I'm nearly broke right now and I have to find and pay for a dress, then pay for stuff for my friend's birthday thing, and also pay for the makeup. Honestly, I don't have enough money for all of that right now. And I'm going to have to ask my parents for money. But I don't want to, because I'd feel so bad for asking for more money considering my dad gave me over $100 in total these past couple of weeks. And also, honestly if I cannot find a dress on Saturday, I will have to do some extraordinary last minute shopping during Sunday morning to find a dress, since the volleyball group photo isn't until 7 or 8 pm.

Oh and the dress thing isn't the only thing I'm stressed about. I'm stressed about having time to do homework and projects next week because I have a practice on Tuesday but I'm supposed to do a project that day, and then on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday we have lower mainlands to try to get into provincials for volleyball. And then I need to decide if I should drop calculus or not. And I need to decide soon because I have a calc test next week. Oh speaking of tests, I have a chemistry test next week too that COULD have been on Tuesday (so I can use Monday to study for it, since it's Remembrance Day long weekend) but NO my dumb class voted for Thursday. But Tuesday I have volleyball and the day before the test I have lower mainlands and I'll be too tired to study!! Plus I don't even have much time to study during the weekend, even though it's a 4 day weekend.

Oh and on top of all of that I NEED TO GET MY GRADES UP TO GET INTO UNIVERSITY. Okay. I've only applied for 1 university so far (for SFU) and I still need to complete my application for UBC but I don't have any fucking time to!! And then I need to find scholarships and apply for those and those actually require some time to do so ugh. And I also need to volunteer!!

Wow honestly I didn't know senior year would be THIS busy and stressful. Ugh.

On a brighter note, I GOT AN IPHONE 4S. I know. It's a 4S. But it's good enough!! And also it's a black one and I wanted white, but they ran out of white ones with 16gb and the only one that came in white was 64gb which I for sure was not going to get.

halloween

Sooo yesterday was Halloween and I was a cat! =^. .^=

american apparel crop top, talula skirt

To be honest this was my first year actually dressing up for Halloween in high school. The other years I didn't  because I'm not exactly a very school spirit-y type of person. But seeing as this is my last year of high school *cries* I decided to actually dress up! And what better and unique costume to dress up as than a cat!?

So here's some selfies I took on my friend's iPhone:

And speaking of an iPhone, I'M STILL WAITING TO GET ONE UGH. My plan for my shitty LG Xenon ended like almost a month ago and my dad still won't get me a new phone!! I want an iPhone already wah. I'm planning to just get a 4S rather than a 5 because the 4S has more cases (hehe) and it's cheaper (obviously).

And I just wanted to post some pictures stolen from other people's Facebook albums just to keep for the memories :') hehe

I don't know why I'm saying this because you obviously don't know them but I'll just say anyway that the top photo is me, Mellis, and Karman and the bottom photo is Karman, me, and Kim. Yeah.

Wow I feel like I look so weird in far away photos compared to close-up photos. Do you ever feel that way? I mean like close-up photos and selfies and stuff I look fine but in far away photos I feel like my eyes look so tiny and weird and my lips look weird and my whole face in general looks weird. Maybe it's the lighting. Or maybe it's because in selfies I angle my face to make me look prettierrr hahaha. But either way I gotta learn to angle my face and everything to look okay before my grad pics, which are in a bit over a week! Ahhhh I'm graduating soon and it's finally starting to sink in. :'(

OHOHOHOH and I went trick or treating that evening too with a few of my friends and LOOK AT MY HARD WORK heheheh

Hard work pays off!! I went for like 2 hours in pouring rain. Hehe. I felt so bad though because I'm fucking 17 and going trick or treating but whatever IT'S FREE CANDY. HAha but I feel bad because some of the people handing out candy were like kids that were way, way, way younger than us and I was like thinking like omg I should be giving candy to you ahhkfldfflkgh;hgh but yeah hahah.

I think this is going to be my last year trick or treating like for good because next year I'll be 18 and that's like.. almost an adult so that's kind of awkward so yeah. Bye!

good kids make bad grown ups

adidas originals t-shirt, secondhand denim jacket, tna leggings, joe fresh jacket, doc marten boots

The weather's getting uglier and colder and wetter and that means my Doc Martens are coming out! Even though I bought these babies 2 years ago, I haven't worn them that much to be honest. Or, it feels like I haven't worn them very much. I don't know. But I love how my Docs always keep my socks dry after walking home in pouring rain. Now that Vancouver's rainy weather is returning, I won't see a nice warm day until maybe June of next year. Sigh. This is why I wish I lived in California, because it's, like, nice weather all the time. But hey, it's autumn, and winter is coming. LOOK AT DEM LEAVES

Ooh and Christmas is nearing too! I really love Christmas. I don't know. Like, around Christmas time, when I'm walking into the mall from the Skytrain station, there's holiday music playing and it's so cold but it makes me so happy. Is that kind of weird? Haha.

But enough about Christmas, because Halloween is tomorrow! I'm dressing up as a cat. Yes, my costume is totally the most unique thing ever. I'll post some photos tomorrow, when I actually get myself all dressed up. I'm still not entirely sure what to wear, since I have cat ears and a tail and I suppose I can just wear anything black and it'll work. I'm thinking about just wearing my black AA crop top with my black Talula skirt and yeah. And draw a cat nose and whiskers and ta da I'm a fucking cat.

Anyway, I submitted my grad write-up yesterday and I wrote: "Good kids make bad grown ups. Stay gold, stray old." It's from 'Parade' by Tyler, the Creator.

P.S. I finally made a Twitter haha. I know, FINALLY! I still don't get the point of it... I mean I just tweet about what's up with my life? What if my life is a huge piece of boring shit? Wah

i wanna be an idle teen

I never curl my hair and I am, like, a complete amateur at it and this was probably my third or fourth attempt of curling my hair in my whole entire life sadly but I thought I'd like post this. ^_^

Anyway, my grad write-up is due on Tuesday which is 3 days away and I'm getting nervous because I still don't know what to write for it! Like, I want something short and simple but clever ya know? Ugh these grad write-ups are due way too soon, like it's October! Why do we have to get these in in October!? The school year started just a month or two ago...

And more about school! My marks are less than I was hoping for too at the moment. Like, the courses I'm using for university admission are English, Math, Biology, and either French or Chemistry. At the moment, I have absolutely no clue what I am getting in English and French as my teacher never posted our marks but based on our assignments for English so far I am getting a pretty good mark. In terms of percentage, my mark is in the 90s I'd say. French is probably an A but under 90 so that is less than satisfactory for me, considering it's French and I FUCKING NEED THIS TO BOOST UP MY AVERAGE FOR ADMISSION. And then Math isn't going so swell. My first test I got 81% and that is just fucking horrible. Biology I am getting 92 or 93 which is like the minimum average for university admission so I need to step my game up, like honestly. And then for Chem I'm getting barely an A. Fuck. If I don't get into UBC this is going to suck. A lot. And I'm going to get hell from my parents.

I'm just getting so stressed lately. Like, I'm actually considering going to my guidance counsellor and asking for advice on hope to cope with stress and how to stop procrastinate or at least minimize it. For so long I just pushed aside my habit of procrastinating and told myself that by the time I am in grade 12 I would know to work hard and stop slacking off. Well guess what? I'm in grade 12 and I'm. Still. Fucking. Procrastinating.

I know I talk about shit like this so much but I just really don't want high school to end. I just don't ever want to grow up. I don't want to become an adult. I don't want to take care of things myself and gain responsibility. In fact, I hate the feeling of responsibility. I think this is why I still haven't gotten my driver's license unlike a lot of people in my grade. I still haven't gotten my learner's, which most people got as soon as they turned 16. I guess I'm just pushing it all aside because it makes me feel like I'm growing up and maturing, which I do not want. Ugh.

Oh and also on October 25, I went to my first ever high school dance. Haha. I never went before because I'm not really the social event type of person, plus.. I CAN'T DANCE. But I decided just to go anyway because it's my last year of high school after all (sadly) so I thought I'd just make the best out of it and actually do stuff that I don't normally do. Like going to a school dance. Haha. I was really worried I was going to be, well, awkward. But to be honest, when I went, it was different from what I imagined it to be like... I mean, I don't know. There were less people than I expected. Also, basically everyone was in this huge tight group in front of the stage where the DJ was, who was just this guy in my grade. And, like, all the music they played was, well, house music which isn't really my thing so... But anyway, it wasn't that bad, but it's not exactly the most fun thing in the world... Haha.

And meanwhile on Facebook right now there is an epidemic of 'like for a tbh' statuses and I liked a few of them but honestly I shouldn't have. I shouldn't have because knowing how other people view me is something I worry about a lot. It's because as much as I can change myself, I can never change how other people think of me. And I mean, the 'tbh's that I received were pretty nice, but there was one that said that I think I am different from others and that I seem like I hate people and seem really opinionated. I mean, I've always tried to be unique but the way the person said it made it seem like... I try to be different? Like, I try HARD to be different? I mean, the person probably didn't intend it like that, but it made me feel like it was meant like that. And about how it seems like I hate people... I don't even know what to say about that. I mean, honestly, I am very opinionated but I never realized that I came across like I hate everyone. I think I'm just overcomplicating this whole thing. But still. I've just been thinking about this a lot lately. And I guess I'm writing this out here because I don't have anyone I can tell this too. I mean, I feel like if I talk about it, I would just sound so stupid.

Why the fuck do I always make things so complicated. Why do I have to think so much. Ugh.

Meanwhile, I'm very, very slowly reading '1984' by George Orwell. Very slowly. Like, a few pages a day slow. And speaking of this novel, one day my English teacher who is this pretty cool funny guy was wearing a t-shirt that was like '1984' themed with an eye on it and everything and when I went up to him to get a worksheet I told him that I was currently reading that novel and ever since then he's been smiling and saying hi to me in the halls. All righty then.

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Okay! Finally! My recent purchases! They range from just a few days ago to almost a month ago but oh well. I thought I'd just post them now.

Here are my shoes that I'm going to be wearing for my Artona photo (grad photo). I have a photo of my dress in this post (somewhere in there). In fact, I'm wearing these right now. Hehe. I got them from Aldo. They were originally I think $100 but I got them on sale for $50! They're 5.5 inches and suede. My mom and aunt are convinced that I'm going to trip and die but honestly they're not even that tall. Whatever.

So I bought this denim jacket like a month ago. I wore it to Sagan's photo show and the Odd Future concert. I bought it from F As In Frank for only like $36. When I first stepped into the store I was so overwhelmed by everything and askdjflg but yeah. I really want to stop by there again soon.

At the same shopping trip that I bought the denim jacket. I think this shirt was definitely an impulse buy... but anyway, I got it from Front & Company and I thought it'd be weird and cute and it was like $18. Maybe I'll wear it next summer, tucked into a pair of vintage Levi's or something. But for now, I'm not sure about this. Haha.

Okay and during the same shopping trip I also bought this from Front & Company except I couldn't take it home until like 2 weeks later because it was on display in the front. So yeah. But it was $24 dollars and basically it's just this oversized acid washed thin jacket sort of thing. I'm still debating on whether or not it was a good purchase but yeah...

Lastly, I have this vintagey bomber jacket! I actually like this. I don't know. There's just something about it that I like, but boy am I bad at making clothes look ugly in pictures. Trust me it's really not so bad in person!! I bought it at Front & Company as well (wow I just realized how much random stuff I buy there) and I think it'll be so cute especially in the summer with a pair of high waisted shorts, a crop top, chelsea boots and my light wash denim American Apparel backpack.

Wow this post has been filled with weird purchases. But yeah. Haha. Now I have to go back to doing homework. *cries*

we are golden

Wow I just realized that I haven't done an outfit post for ages. Well, that's because every morning I'm so busy rushing and trying not to be late and so I have, like, no time to take a picture of my outfit. Then afterschool I usually have volleyball practice or a game so by the time I get home I'm still in my volleyball stuff and all sweaty and gross and tired. But yeah. Yesterday I had no school and I went shopping with my sister so I finally took some outfit photos!

american apparel sweater, tna leggings, tna parka, vintage necklace, thrifted bag, nine west boots

I went shopping on Main Street and then headed downtown. I went to Front & Company (a really great consignment store) and I bought a vintagey-looking 90's style silk bomber jacket with ropes and chain prints on it. Also, I bought 3 bras from La Senza because they're having, like, this sale thing where you get $10 off a regular priced bra so I got them for like $11-$14 each so yay! Haha and I also finally bought one of those Featherlite bras (the ones that you just, well, stick on) from La Vie en Rose (because it was $40 and the cheapest I could find) for my backless dress for grad photos!

Speaking of those Artona photos, they're coming up so soon. Adkdjklgfd I'm actually getting a bit freaked out. I mean, I already bought my shoes (I'll post them maybe tomorrow because I took photos of all my recent purchases today but I'm just too lazy to upload them) and everything but I haven't booked my hair and makeup yet so I'm a bit worried about that! I mean, my cousin is going to be doing my hair for both days I have group photos but I'm not sure if I should get it done at a salon for my individual photo session which is on a separate day. Plus, I still need to book an appointment to get my makeup done. I think I'm just going to go to MAC or something but I'm still not entirely sure what kind of makeup I want. Like, I feel like I should just go for like more natural eye makeup like maybe a really subtle and soft smokey eye but I'm afraid they're going to... well, over-do it? Because I feel like eyeshadow looks horrible on my eyes (the way I apply it, at least) so I'm praying that a professional will be able to make it actually look good.

So lately, I've been obsessing over Make It Or Break It. I remember when during the spring break of 2011 I watched all the episodes of MIOBI (well, that were released at the time) and I watched all of season 1 and 2 and I was waiting for season 3 which wasn't scheduled to be released until, like, a year later and I was devastated. So a year passed and I grew out of my MIOBI obsession and I never bothered to watch season 3 despite the fact that it aired like over half a year ago. So now, I have rewatched all of season 1, and I am currently on episode 15 of season 2, and I am making my way up to season 3 which I am now really excited to watch! Hehe. And my obsession over it has come back because now I can't stop talking about it with my sister who is also rewatching it too (in her own time). Oh god I'm such a loser but I can't help it! I'm planning to rewatch The O.C. this winter break or spring break too! Heheh.

Well, I'm tired, since I came back from a family party too. And I have planned out a huge schedule for tomorrow. I have my whole day planned out from the minute I wake up at 8:30 am until about 8:00 pm. I have everything written there as to what homework I will do and for how long and I even included breaks to watch 3 MIOBI episodes. ^_^

Okay, bye!