2012-11-09

everything is shit right now

Wow it feels like I haven't posted in forever. Well, it's been a little over a week but I've been so busy lately that everything just feels so long and ugh.

Basically my life for the past 4 days has been volleyball playoffs. And I found out that me + caffeine = good volleyball player. Haha. The first 2 days, I was so tired, with about 4-5 hours of sleep per night, and my volleyball playing was just absolute shit and I feel bad because I think I contributed a lot to our loss in the semifinal game. But the last 2 days of the playoffs, I grabbed myself a vanilla latte from Starbucks prior to the game and wow I was so loud and energized on the court. Like, my reaction time was just so much faster than usual. Plus apparently I couldn't stop moving. Like, I just couldn't stand still during the timeouts. Hahah. And I actually got most of my serves over (which I had been struggling on basically all season) and my hits were better, and my passing. Haha. And now everyone on the team teases me about my coffee thing. Everyone, even my teammate's mom (who is just so cute!!), says stuff like "did you get your coffee today?!" and "somebody get her more coffee!" and "VANILLA LATTE!!!!" to me hahah. But yeah.

But I'm just so stressed out right now. Tomorrow (rather, today considering it's like past 12 am) I have two Artona group photo sessions and I am NOT ready for it. Like, I still need to do some shaving ahaha and I'm just feeling really nervous about doing my own hair tomorrow and I have to go and get my makeup done and also I NEED A FUCKING DRESS BY SUNDAY. I have a group photo on Sunday with some girls on my volleyball team and a couple guys from the senior boy's team and they want to do all black dresses but I DON'T HAVE A FUCKING BLACK DRESS. So I need one ASAP but I'm picky as fuck about dresses so I'm getting really stressed and nervous about finding a dress by then. Tomorrow, before I get my makeup done at Oakridge, I think I'm going to look around for a dress. But the thing is, the stores there have such pricey dresses and I really need a cheaper one that I can afford and pay for myself. Then I'm going to be occupied until the evening with Artona and everything so I'm not going to have time afterwards. Then on Saturday my friend is having a little birthday lunch and then we're going to watch Paranormal Activity 4. If I can't find a dress tomorrow (I mean today.. whatever) then I'll quickly go to Metrotown earlier and as a last resort try and find a dress at Forever 21 because it'll be cheaper. Like, I'm so stressed out not only by the dresses but by my money situation overall. I should have worked this summer but I didn't. Fuck. Why didn't I?! I'm so fucking dumb and lazy. Like, I'm nearly broke right now and I have to find and pay for a dress, then pay for stuff for my friend's birthday thing, and also pay for the makeup. Honestly, I don't have enough money for all of that right now. And I'm going to have to ask my parents for money. But I don't want to, because I'd feel so bad for asking for more money considering my dad gave me over $100 in total these past couple of weeks. And also, honestly if I cannot find a dress on Saturday, I will have to do some extraordinary last minute shopping during Sunday morning to find a dress, since the volleyball group photo isn't until 7 or 8 pm.

Oh and the dress thing isn't the only thing I'm stressed about. I'm stressed about having time to do homework and projects next week because I have a practice on Tuesday but I'm supposed to do a project that day, and then on Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, and Saturday we have lower mainlands to try to get into provincials for volleyball. And then I need to decide if I should drop calculus or not. And I need to decide soon because I have a calc test next week. Oh speaking of tests, I have a chemistry test next week too that COULD have been on Tuesday (so I can use Monday to study for it, since it's Remembrance Day long weekend) but NO my dumb class voted for Thursday. But Tuesday I have volleyball and the day before the test I have lower mainlands and I'll be too tired to study!! Plus I don't even have much time to study during the weekend, even though it's a 4 day weekend.

Oh and on top of all of that I NEED TO GET MY GRADES UP TO GET INTO UNIVERSITY. Okay. I've only applied for 1 university so far (for SFU) and I still need to complete my application for UBC but I don't have any fucking time to!! And then I need to find scholarships and apply for those and those actually require some time to do so ugh. And I also need to volunteer!!

Wow honestly I didn't know senior year would be THIS busy and stressful. Ugh.

On a brighter note, I GOT AN IPHONE 4S. I know. It's a 4S. But it's good enough!! And also it's a black one and I wanted white, but they ran out of white ones with 16gb and the only one that came in white was 64gb which I for sure was not going to get.

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