Here is a pic while I was walking home today. PEEP MY DOCS. I can't believe I've had them since grade 10 yet I barely wear them. And I just realized that I haven't done any ootds in a long long long time. I've just been dressing so lazily and I swear I just wear the same things every day now which usually consist of a sweater, leggings, and docs or converse or vans. I just feel like they're not very photo worthy.
Anyway, this is the last week of classes!!! I'm so so happy because honestly uni is making me feel so anxious all the time. Honestly every time I go to the UBC Connect website and log on I just get this sick feeling in my stomach. I probably wouldn't feel this way had I been keeping up with everything in school but ugh. The sad thing is that with classes ending soon, that means finals are coming up!! I'm so so nervous, especially because I already did so bad on my midterms and finals are worth so much more so if I do bad, I will actually fail the course. My standards for my grades have dropped so low ever since entering uni. Throughout high school I had never ever gotten lower than a B. Now, I'm nearly failing all my classes. I'm mad at myself because I worked so hard to get here and now that I'm here I've fallen back into old habits and I've gotten so lazy to the point where I can't keep up with my studies and I've fallen so behind. I didn't realize that uni would be so tough but I really need to step up my game!!!
The only thing that makes me kind of happy to go to uni is this cute-ish guy who I see on the bus when I go to school almost every wed and fri. He dresses pretty nicely and we keep making eye contact and I've run into him downtown before too and on campus and idk. He's so short though lol but ANYWAY
Yesterday I went to the Central Library downtown to study for chem and I think I was sort of productively but at the same time I really need to manage my time a bit better. Like right now I should be working on my physics project but I'm not. And my English essay.
I swear, I'm surprised my hair hasn't turned gray from all this stress. I'm dreading the next 3 weeks so so so badly because that's when I have finals and I'm 100% sure that I am gonna break down and cry more than once. My chem final is in a little over a week (dec 5), my bio is a couple days after that (dec 7), my math is on dec 11, my english is on dec 12, and physics is dec 14. To be honest the one I am not looking forward to the most is physics because I honestly don't know anything. I feel so hopeless.
I think I'm gonna actually do some work now. I wish this stupid anxious scared feeling would go away though.
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