schtuff

1. Pretty sky today!
2. Just borrowed these books from the library. Currently reading 'Invisible Monsters' by Chuck Palahniuk.
3. Bought some Palty hair dye yesterday! I need 2 boxes because I have a lot of hair. Haha.
4. The colour of it. Caramel brown. Of course it won't turn out this light on me because my hair isn't bleached.. but yeah, I already dyed my hair with this colour last summer (like a year ago) so I think it's finally time to redye my hair! And also, as you can kind of see from my thumb nail, my nails are growing out! I haven't picked at them much which is really good. I really hope I keep this up throughout the upcoming school year. Sigh.

dream: tornado + shaved head + asap rocky

Last night was really warm, so we all moved our mattresses downstairs and slept there. I had two dreams last night.

We were inside my house and suddenly I noticed a skinny tornado forming in the distance. Not sure of what to do, we just kind of stood there in our house watching the tornado come closer and closer. When it did come to us, it went right down my back alley (how unrealistic, right?) and basically just demolished trees and tore power lines and broke fences but it didn't do any other harm (yes, it is unrealistic I think). After it passed, we kind of just stood there and looked at the damage, which wasn't much to our home besides the broken fence from a tree falling onto it.

Then I woke up (I remember waking up, too) and I looked around, and remembered that I was sleeping downstairs, and then fell back asleep and had another dream.

This time, my friend Karman was there. We were doing some sort of photography course I think because we were at school, and some classmates were there, and Karman was going around taking pictures. In this dream, I had gotten my head shaved, and I liked it. I remember my friend taking photographs of me and I liked how I looked with a shaved head. I don't know. Then, when we were done, we went into an elevator which was like glass all around, even the floor, and we headed down. When we got out, we walked until we got to a familiar street (at the intersection of 49th Avenue and Elliott Street) and we began walking in the direction of our school. I saw a man and a woman walking behind us already and the man looked like ASAP Rocky but I didn't say anything. I was wearing my American Apparel denim backpack and suddenly the woman that ASAP Rocky was with called after me and asked me where I got my backpack. I told her it was from American Apparel and then I turned to the man and I asked him if he was ASAP Rocky and he smiled and said yes. We hugged and posed for a picture and my friend took a picture of us. Then, as we departed, I woke up.

in/out

Friday, August 3, 2012

My outfit today! Kind of:

My camera really sucks balls but like imagine a plain black American Apparel t-shirt with the sleeves cuffed twice tucked into a pair of black American Apparel shorts with this vintage necklace and a pair of flats. Because that's what I wore. Um. Anyway, I really like my hair in this picture. Like, the colour. It's not actually this colour in real life sadly but looking at this picture makes me want to redye my hair and lighten my brown (I have horrid roots too so I should touch those up). Is it too light though? I don't know. All I know is that it looks quite pretty in that lighting. Sigh.

So like, today's Friday! I'm so happy. This week of summer school has sucked and I'm really glad it's the weekend now. Plus, I don't have class on Monday! Yay! The sad news though is that on Tuesday I have a test, Wednesday I have a test, Thursday I have a test, and Friday I have a final exam. So um. I'm kind of fucked. That's like a test every day. For 4 days straight. I better catch up on everything over the weekend and actually start studying. Ugh. I'm planning to just like not do ANY chemistry for the rest of today. I think I should reward myself for surviving 5 weeks of summer school thus far and also it's a long weekend so I think 1 day off would be fine. ^_^

I ate this yesterday. How healthy, right?! Kashi 7 Whole Grain cereal with fresh blueberries! To be honest, it didn't taste that bad. But I think the fact that I had a popsicle and a microwavable meal on the same day kind of cancelled it out. I haven't done my ab exercise in 2 days now. I told myself I would do it yesterday but I forgot/was too lazy. COME ON, JASMINE UGH FJDKSJDSAKJSAFAAL.

Anyway, since my summer school course is ending in a week's time, I borrowed 'Invisible Monsters' by Chuck Palahniuk and 'Junk' by Melvin Burgess from the library to read after I'm free from summer school. I haven't read a novel in ages. Actually, I lied there. I did start 'Choke' by Chuck Palahniuk but I was too lazy and didn't have enough time to finish it. I also started 'Lolita' by Vladimir Nabokov several weeks ago but I just didn't have enough time and I couldn't renew the book because other people requested it on hold so yeah. Bummer. So, let me rephrase this: I haven't finished a novel in ages.

Anyway I always have shit that I want to talk about on my blog that I think of on my daily 15 minute walk home from summer school, and I have my mind set on writing a whole ton of shit, but as soon as I start typing, I just forget everything. Like now. Sad face. I SWEAR I HAD MORE TO SAY. UGH. Okay you know what? I will just end this now with a pretty picture of the sky from a few days ago:

I will pee on everything you love.

dream: murder

I was really scared I'd forget this dream that I had last night but I kept thinking about it today so here goes. Some parts are kind of blurry and some parts I vaguely remember but oh well.

It began with my best friend, Christina, bringing this really cute guy with her when she met up with me. I did not recognize him nor do I recall what he looks like now but all I remember is that he was tall and had dark hair and was pretty hot. We all got into a car (though I forgot who was driving). Christina and I were sitting in the back seat and the hot guy was sitting next to the driver. We all got out of the car at my grandma (my mom's side)'s house. (I tend to have a lot of dreams at her house, I just realized.) My brother was there and so was I think my mom and my grandma and grandpa. We went into the house and I don't exactly remember this part very well but I overheard the hot guy saying something about how he was planning to murder someone soon. Someone in the house. I panicked and when no one was looking I slipped out of the house and ran. I remember running past my grandma's really pretty colourful garden and for some reason the sidewalk was surrounded on either side by huge plants but I kept running. It was kind of hard to run though... like, I felt like my legs just wouldn't run, kind of like trying to run through water. So I kept running to try to get at least out of eyesight because I was scared that the hot guy was going to murder me if he knew I left or something. I finally turned the corner where I knew I was safer and soon a group of little dogs came after me, growling. I freaked out because they were coming really fast at me and I thought they were going to bite me so (okay, I know, this is really really really mean and I truly would never do this in reality) I kicked the dogs away. (It sounds so harsh omg but that's what I did.) The dogs finally backed off and I remember running for a long time. I think I was trying to get home or something.

I remember running up the street away from my house though, in this small street. I was running towards the big street where there were cars. Suddenly though, I was in an unfamiliar kitchen/dining room area and Aaron Hotchner from Criminal Minds was there. He's an FBI special agent and stuff so at that point I knew that the hot guy must have murdered someone. But then they started talking about me kicking the dogs and animal abuse and I started panicking. And Hotchner turned to me and said something like "We know who the unsub is... you." And suddenly I was some nerdy looking caucasian male teenager. Like, I could see his point-of-view and everything, but I wasn't controlling what he was saying. He was saying something like "Why do you always have to be like that?!" and getting really mad. Then it was like the camera zoomed out from the teen's point-of-view and I was watching like a third-person.

Then suddenly, I was back to myself again and I was standing at I think it was a movie theatre entrance area with Christina. As we walked in, there was the clothing store that I have recurring dreams about. I went in, and Christina went off somewhere and disappeared. In this clothing store, it's filled with a bunch of clothes that I really like but it's so overpriced. The interior design of the store is really Urban Outfitters style with a lot of brown with a vintage-y old wood look to it. I remember passing by a really cute knit sweater with a wolf head on it that I wanted. I continued to look through the store (there didn't seem to be any other customers but I did see an employee or two).

Then, I woke up. The weird thing is that I woke up by myself at around 5:06. My alarm wasn't scheduled to go off until 5:30 am and I found it weird since I went to bed at around 12 am and I only got 5 hours of sleep so I normally wouldn't just, well, wake up like this. So I just laid on my bed for the next 20 minutes thinking about my dream and I kept trying to put a face to the hot guy but I couldn't remember what he looked like.

But that recurring dream of the clothing store I have is so weird. Like, I have dreamt about it like maybe about 5 other times, but each time I don't have money and the clothes are so expensive. I've tried on shoes there before too. And I actually want to go shop there in reality but unfortunately this store is like nonexistent and made up in my head so yeah. Sigh.

hmm

Just did the 8 minute abs workout. I've done this about four times in my whole entire life now and each time I start I tell myself I'll do it at least 4 times a week but so far the longest I've ever gone was doing it twice in one week. I really need to actually push myself to do this because I want a flatter stomach. Sigh. Here it is:

I'm kind of sweating right now just a bit which I think is a good thing (I mean if I sweat, at least it means this workout is doing something for me, right?). I really want to actually keep this up, considering I have so much free time seeing as it's the summer. I also want to actually start going on jogs because I heard it helps your whole body in terms of becoming leaner. I know, apparently I look kind of fit but I feel like I need something to keep myself from getting fat in the summer and then when school starts I'll have P.E. class as my way of exercising. The thing is though, my stomach is pretty big. Like, bigger than an average person I think. Most of the time I suck it in but I really just want to try and get rid of my stomach fat. According to a comment on this video, it took some person 6 months of doing this workout to get abs. Though the thing is, I'm not aiming to get a rock-hard six pack. All I want is a toned stomach. But at the same time, that commenter was probably a guy and I think it's easier for a guy to gain muscle so um yeah. Maybe it will take me 6 months too then.
The thing I need to start working on is EATING HEALTHY. Dammit this is so hard to do. I'd say that my metabolism is pretty quick because I eat loads but I don't really gain much weight, so I'm lucky. But I think in order to help lose some fat in my stomach I should actually start eating right. The first step I took was drinking more water (to be honest, I don't really like the taste of water). But for the past few days, I've been drinking more cups of water than I usually do (which is not very much) so yeah. That's a start. I just got to start working on eating better. Like, the only thing I can think of that would be healthy is like a salad. But to be honest, I actually like salads. The thing I need to do is just find some good recipes and get ingredients. I have to make lunch for myself almost everyday now anyway so I might as well try out some recipes and stuff.
And now I realize that I'm not very sweaty anymore. But I do still want to take a shower. I still have to study for a test tomorrow. I have less than 2 weeks of summer school left! Next Friday (August 10) is the last day of summer school and it's also the day of my final exam (oh god) and then I'm free for what's left of the summer (which is basically a few weeks so that sucks). Plus, I don't have class this coming Monday so yay. My overall mark currently is 94.0% so it dropped. I think it's because as I'm nearing the end of this course, I'm just getting lazier and lazier and I don't want to do work anymore and I just want to start my summer. Sigh.
Well, let me just end this off with a song I've been listening to a lot recently, "National Anthem" by Lana Del Rey:

Plus ASAP Rocky's in this music video!! ^_^

From the tumblr blog of beyoncebeytwice:

"when attractive people compliment me on things i get suspicious because remember when regina george complimented that one girl on her skirt"