I would totally do a huge post to summarize my uneventful life but I am far too lazy and so I'll just pretend nothing happened at all that past month. YEah. But wow, it's March already, which makes me kind of sad. Actually, more than kind of sad, it makes me really sad, because it means I'm graduating in a few months! Wah. I always talk about how I really don't want to grow up and I still don't, and the thought of graduating from high school and soon becoming an adult or whatever is just making me depressed.
But anyway, I cannot wait for term 2 at school to end so that I can stop worrying about marks. Like, I swear my teachers are trying to kill me because I have had so many projects and assignments and tests due last week and this coming week as well but I think term 2 ends at the end of the week (Match 8?) so I can finally relax. My sleeping schedule is so fucked up now because I haven't been getting much sleep and I've been napping a lot because of all the homework and stuff I have to get done and the studying I have to do, but tbh it's my fault. I'm suuuuccchhhhh a procrastinator. Like, I just leave EVERYTHING until the last minute. And every time, I'm like up at 3 am really tired and I tell myself that I have learned my lesson and next time I'll actually study/do it earlier but I never do. And because of that, I've pulled 2 all-nighters within 3 days and I've gotten like max 4 hours of sleep the nights that I do sleep. And afterschool, I'm usually so tired that I nap for 2-3 hours everyday now. I cannot live without naps.
But on the plus side, my marks aren't bad. Well, that aren't as high as I would like them to be, but they're not as terrible as I thought they would be. Like, the hugest surprise is my math mark. I AM GETTING 91% IN MATH. PRAISE THE LORD. I was so shocked when I saw my mark because do you know when the last time I got an A in math was??? IN GRADE 8. I swear. Oh my god. I was so happy with my mark, especially when I got a test back and aced it, and I think I was smiling and I couldn't stop and I looked really weird because apparently a lot of people did pretty badly on that test but wow. AhhhhhhhHHHhhHhhhh. I've been working much much much harder on math than I ever had before so I guess you can say hard work pays off. As for my other marks, for bio I'm getting 93% (but I was aiming for higher), english I haven't a clue but I don't even think I'm getting an A this term which is fucking horrible, chem I'm probably getting either a high B or low A, and french I think an A. I'm praying that my personal profile application for UBC is good enough for them to consider me even thought my marks are pretty low (well, for their admission average). I got into SFU Bachelor of Science, but I don't want to go there. It's just a back-up for now because I'm aiming for UBC.
I realized, my life is actually kind of sad. I mean, like, it's not sad as in full of sadness, but it's... lame? I just sit here and watch the days pass me by. I always look forward for days to end and future days to come, and then afterwards I look back and realize that days just passed me by and I wasted my time doing nothing. And then I feel sad because I don't want the future to come, but at the same time I do. Does this make sense or do I just sound like a complete nut? I don't know. It's like, I am so excited for spring break to come (2 MORE WEEKS ahhhhhh) but at the same time, as I look forward to spring break coming, then everyday up until spring break, I'm can't wait for spring break to come and I can't wait for the days to end and spring break to come. But then after that, when it comes, I look back and I'm like, wow, I wish I had spent my time doing better things. Okay I will stop rambling on about this because I probably sound stupid.
During spring break, a lot of people I know are going to the S-Trip and I really wish I had signed up to go. It's basically, like, a bunch of people from school go to a trip somewhere together for a week and yeah. But it's obvious way too late to go. Like, this year, they're going to the Dominican and now I regret not signing up for it. But then again, I don't even know if my parents would have let me, considering it was like $2000, but still. It sounds so fun. Plus everyone's gonna come back all tan and I'm gonna be sad.
But during spring break, I'm gonna try to be really fit. As in, going for jogs (something I cannot bring myself to do for the life of me) and eating healthier and cutting back on stuff like chocolate and processed foods (hahahah I'm sitting here stuffing myself with Maltesers and Cadbury mini eggs right now). I think I'm gonna work out too, like at a gym, but probably She's Fit or something like that, since it's women only hahaha. I'm lucky that I have a pretty high metabolism, since I eat like every minute I am awake but I'm skinny according to people).
Also today I found my old Nintendo DS which I haven't played with in like 2 years and I found my old Animal Crossing: Wild World game and ahhhhh it gives me such nostalgic feels hahaha. Like, ALL OF THOSE MEMORIES!! I used to play that game all the time and I made my house so huge and beautiful and I collected so much furniture and so many citizen people gave me their pictures and wow. Omg. I'm gonna stop now because I just sound like an absolute weirdo but man, I miss those days. Hahah.
Ooh and yesterday, I came across this photo on tumblr:
Anyway, I think I'll end this post now. Bye.
P.S. I only decided to update this blog because I was told by some people that they miss reading my posts??? Wow I am actually really surprised by that because basically all I do here is talk about stupid shit that no one really should care about or complain or be annoying but yeah. I mean, it's not like I'm posting for people to read, I'm kind of posting for myself because I have this huge fear of losing my memory and I want everything and my thoughts and stuff to be here. But it's cool. That's all.
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